mashin' tomatoez

can't hardly wait

2008-04-01T19:39:00.000-07:00

supposedly, we're (ailee and me) gonna go to divisoria today, but then my atm card won't work so i have to wait till next week to get my new atm card thank God i have another atm card that can work...

anyhoo, i was so bored i went to the internet shop and just surfed the net,right now im waiting for can't hardly wait to load on youtube so i can watch it...

hehehe oh well...

ghetto bluez

2008-03-31T03:41:00.001-07:00

the first time i heard this song... i liked it right away though hip hop nga sya, the reason i liked it, is because rather than the usual hip hop background music, it's blues which i love by the way, and voila! i loked the song right away, again, the link and the lyrics...

It'z on Thatz the move AJ [yea] Well it'z on
We gon intensify the struggle, you know what I'm sayin'
We under a lot of pressure, all opposites survive
II Tru put it down, yeah, we gon keep bringin' it 1996 Mo Thugs

Ghetto Bluez has got me down foe the the last time[X:2]
Ghetto Bluez has got me down

Strapped down we get our ways he'z beggin' me to
the extent of my strugglez
Statis, they call me
I'm a low come in up on em' money hustle
The same old thang for a new game
to be played foe cheeze
Gotta get whats promised to a sister
comin' up on bankin g's
Hustlin'z all the same
I can't deal wit theze playaz thoughtz
Too much trustin' risks
make foe week fool to get caught
Hold the slippin' too late to be trippin' we
stratigiez gonna pass to me
Underprice everyday down in all theze lifes
endz societiez
Still I hold on stay strong and focus
with life of no time to pay the price of failure
Let me tell you no lie livin' by the
strugglin' rulez
Gotta do whatcha gotta do thats it
We strugglin' who givez a damn man 'bout
this down and out chick
My head poundin' what am I gonna do
gotta get on the hustle
Makin' the cheeze comin' outta the low-life of
the ghetto
Gotta make this come up
on the real its hard tos truggle
Ghetto live showin' me no Love
but givin' me reason put away
ah' move on somethin
Gotta hold on my bud
its hard as hell tryin' to stay afloat then
the heart of it all so
From my self its the way I go
I gotta do what gotta be done some might get in
the zehard timez
Strugglin'z a mutha when you gotta one that
cannot provide for mine
Lookin' at my predictament
who's gonna help this sister in need
Can't put the trust in the system
so I gotta huslte theze
streetz foe my cheeze
Gotta make that money
comin' up on the meanz to do
Cause one ah' theze 96' dayz I'm outta theze
ghetto bluez

Ghetto Bluez has got me down foe the the last time[X:3]
Ghetto Bluez has got me down [ohh ohhooohh ohh]
[I said it got me down]

Theze ghetto bluez you gotta sistah' faded

Prayed that this was only a dream
Trapped in a slum surrounded by the crack
fiendz meanz Of survival I guess
Hustle in the hood wear the bullet proof vest
Help me Lord I can get no deeper than this

Wish I wasn't born in this world passed
dissmissed fits
Moms got Love for me she don't know what I do ooh
Gotta slang 95' don't bring in enough food

Stedily Look out for myself
my truez and my family see
Gotta go foe self kauze
won't nobody take care ah' me
stradigy Keep foolz outta off this
gotta take care ah' my business
what is this
II Tru playah hataz on the real
you betta get wit this
Been dogg'd foe too long
come strong fool it'z on
AJ klick comin' thick foe
the 96' Right down to the very Bone
Never laggin' 86' ghetto life
86' them ghetto bluez truez
Comin' up foe the 96' playah hataz
you bound tah lose break rulez
Ain't no lawz here playah
understand ghetto bluez kauze foe
movez testin' truez
But remeber the man
go home if you sensitive
Gotta live not tah' give
been in some strange situationz
Comprehend since ya had to so
a sistah did get rid ah' all excesses
Alwayz stay true to my truez
I can do this
Gotta shake theze problemz
get away from theze ghetto bluez

Ghetto Bluez has got me down foe the the last time[X:3]
Ghetto Bluez has got me down

Try to give a nigga shit
tight wit the man in the mirror
See clear through my dayz on now
Big piece of the puzzle setz burned
Finna on get worst
until we layin' in the hearse
It'z a ghetto curse
Every little KiD in the hood
done felt destroyed
Departred up outta this hell hole
Nigga done felt no stress
but I'm blessed if a soldier
I beg of you Lord Jesus
Help me live tah live with
myself n' my klick foe diseasez
Foe the reepah surround my soul
Stedily sendin' theze through my people
Helpin' me through my people
Helpin' me take control ah' my destiny
I can't let theze streetz get the best of me
With all ah' my KiD'z right next to me
You get respect from me
to keep grindin desperately
Calculated my every move
gotta prove to theze foOLz we confusedz
N' your intention to do your thang
n' maintain the mission
Kauze really my truez can't
settle foe no prison sentence
So I keep my distance from yayo
plottin standin loOKin outta the window
For a rainbow never can't stand
foe the some ol
Klaim' Mo' Thug with Love to the death
that the game goes
Reviewing all possiblitiez responsabilitiez is
major now
Ain't no need don't dwel wit em' danger bound
Should of changed around if we make you suit up
Two blockz foe the war check the score II Tru
can't lose
Kauze you knoe we got shit to prove
Gotta stick foe you Livin' the livez
singin' theze ghetto bluez bluez

Ghetto Bluez has got me down foe the the last time
[got me down foe the last time][X:3]
Ghetto Bluez has got me down
[got me down foe the last time]
[ohh ohhooohh ohh]
[I said it got me down]
[I said ghetto bluez got me down foe the last time]
[I said it got me down] [Ghetto Bluez got me down [X:2]]
[Ghetto blues got me down]
[Ghetto bluez got me down for the last time]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGCfycYaf-E

MARIAH CAREY

2008-03-31T03:35:00.000-07:00

sooo lovin' mariah right now...

i dunno why i just do, siince right now, im all alone, i decided to watch videos on youtube and i decided i'd love to hear lil' love by mariah, btnh and bow wow and there it goes, like a domino... mariah dominated my ears the whole time i was blogging, oh well... hehehe i think she's a much better singer now compared to her heartbreaker days though she was good then, especially with her cheesy love songs, but i think she got even better when she started embracing hip hoip as her genre...

oh well im gonna listen more :D

Since im a mariah carey fan right now here's the lyrics and the link to her song(my new favorite), touch my body hehehe

TOUCH MY BODY
(Mariah Carey - C. Tricky Stewart - Terius "The-Dream" Nash)

MC, you're the place to be
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah

I know that you've been waiting for it
I'm waiting too
In my imagination I'd be all up on you
I know you got that fever for me
102
And boy I know I feel the same
My temperature's through the roof

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my business
Like a Wedding interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Boy you can put me on you
Like a brand new white tee
I'll hug your body tighter
Than my favorite jeans
I want you to caress me
Like a tropical breeze
And float away with you
In the Caribbean Sea

If there's a camera up in here
Then it's gonna leave with me
When I do (I do)
[Touch My Body lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

If there's a camera up in here
Then I'd best not catch this flick
On YouTube (YouTube)
'Cause if you run your mouth and brag
About this secret rendezvous
I will hunt you down
'Cause they be all up in my business
Like a Wedding interview
But this is private
Between you and I

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Imma treat you like a teddy bear
You won't wanna go nowhere
In the lap of luxury
Laying intertwined with me
You won't want for nothing boy
I will give you plenty of joy
Touch my body

Touch my body
Put me on the floor
Wrestle me around
Play with me some more
Touch my body
Throw me on the bed
I just wanna make you feel
Like you never did.
Touch my body
Let me wrap my thighs
All around your waist
Just a little taste
Touch my body
Know you love my curves
Come on and give me what I deserve
And touch my body.

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah
Oh yeah oh yeah
Oh oh oh oh yeah
Touch my body...

lyrics hehehe nakalimutan ko sorry

2008-03-31T03:33:00.000-07:00

[Bone]
Bone Bone Bone Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone.. Bone
Now tell me whatcha gonna do
when there ain't no where to run (tell me what)
(When judgment comes for you, when judgment comes for you)
And whatcha gonna do
when there aint no where to hide (tell me what)
When judgment comes for you (Cause it's gonna come for you)

[Bizzy]
Let's all bring it in for Wally, Eazy sees uncle Charlie
Little Boo, God's got him and I'm gonna miss everybody
I only roll with Bone my gang look to where they lay
When playing with destiny, plays too deep for me to say
Lil' Layzie came to me, told me if he should decease well then please
Bury me by my grand-grand and when you can, come follow me

[Layzie]
God bless you working on a plan to Heaven
Follow the Lord all 24/7 days, GOD is who we praise
even though the devil's all up in my face
But he keeping me safe and in my place, say grace
For the case to race with a chance to face the judge
And I'm guessing my soul won't budge
Grudge because there's no mercy for thugs
Oh what can I do it's all about our family and how we roll
Can I get a witness let it unfold
We living our lives to eternal our soul aye-oh-aye-oh

[Krayzie]
Prayyyyyyy, and we pray and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
Still we laced, now follow me roll stroll
Whether is tell of his Heaven
Come let's go take a visit of people that's long gone
Darris, Wally, Eazy, Terry, Boo
It's steadily creeping up on the family
Exactly how many days we got lasting
While you laughin we're passing, passing away
So y'all go rest y'all souls
Cause I know I'ma meet you up at the crossroads
Y'all know y'all forever got love from them Bone Thugs baby

[Wi$h]
Now Eazy's long gone
Really wish he would come home
But when it's time to die
Gotta go bye bye
All a thug could do is cry, cry
Why they kill my dog and man
I miss my uncle Charles y'all
and he shoudn't be gone, in front of his home
What they did to Boo was wrong
Oh so wrong, oh so wrong
Gotta hold on gotta stay strong
When the day comes
Better believe Bone got a shoulder you can lean on (lean on)

Hey and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
and we pray, and we pray, and we pray, and we pray
everday, everyday, everyday, everyday

[Chorus - Layzie and Krayzie]
See you at the crossroads, crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads
So you won't be lonely
See you at the crossroads, crossroads

[Bizzy]
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody when I'm gone
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody
And I'm gonna miss everybody

[Layzie]
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
Living in a hateful world sending me straight to Heaven
That's how we roll
And I'm asking the good LORD with a sigh
It's I he told me we live to die

[Krayzie]
What's up with murder y'all, see my little cousin was hung
Somebody was really wrong, everybody want to test us dawg
Then Miss Sleazy set up Eazy to fall, you know why we sinnin
And Krayzie intended on ending it when it ends
Wanna come again, again and again
Now tell me whatcha gonna do

[Wi$h]
Can somebody anybody tell me why?
Hey, can somebody anybody tell me why we die, we die?
I dont wanna die

Ohhh so wrong
Ohhhhh wrong
Ohhh so wrong
Ohhhhh wrong

[Chorus - repeat gradually fading away]

Ghetto

2008-03-31T03:04:00.000-07:00

am i being a ghetto?

after my mariah carey video marathon (watched lil love 3x, touch my body 2x, we belong together 1, it's like that 1, say something 1), now, im watching bone thugs and harmony!

omg! i just realized this very moment na baka naman namimiss ko lang si gino dahil wala nang kumakant sakin ng mga hip hop and all that... yes, nagrarap sya pag magkasama kami at with feelings and emotions pa yun! hehehe

anyway, i don't think na yun lang naman talaga ang dahilan... siguro part lang nun... anyhoo, i enjoy all genres of music naman eh... i just enjkoyed it more when i met him since he's a hip hop guy...

imagine this, when i first met him, i know just 2 songs of btnh but now a know a whole lot more, well relatively.... hehehe

oh well, here's tha crossroads lyrics plus a link to its video...

WANTED: Company

2008-03-31T02:52:00.000-07:00

i never realized how it felt to be alone now that i'm actually all alone...

as in literally alone...

no roommates, no orgmates, no boyfriend...

no roommates, kasi may ginagawa sila so wala ako kasama sa room...

no orgmates, hindi ko rin alam kungbakit pero dumaan ako sa tambayan kanina at walang tao (tambayan na banig na nga pala)

no boyfriend kasi he's having a vacation for one week at andyan na ang mommy niya foe one month so out of the picture muna ako...

oh well... ngayon ko lang ulit naranas ang ganito... yung tipong iisipin mo pa kung sino kasama mo kumain later, or kung ano ba talaga gagawin mo ngayong araw... wala lang nakakalungkot nga pala...

oh well... at least lots of "me" time hehehe

HAHAHA

2008-03-05T22:42:00.000-08:00

1. Who was the last person of
the
opposite sex you had a conversation
with?
: aa

2. Where is the last place you went
out to eat?
: ate yols hehehe

3. What was the last beverage you
consumed?
: water

4. Thoughts at this moment?
: di ako pumasok ng stat lab

5. Do you bite your lips a lot?
: nope. just lick it

6. What is more essential -physical
face or a great body?
: physical face! pano kung maganda katawn mo, poangit ka naman! parang si girl next door lang! rawr! hehehe

7. Medicine, fine arts, or law?
: pwede lahat? lahat halos naging option ko eh

9. Best kind of pizza?
: manager's choice ng shakey's

10. Favorite drink?
: water...

11. Do you miss anyone?
: yup

12. What were you doing at 11:59 PM on
Saturday night?
: watching tv

13. Who do you hate?
: mga papansin

14. Who was the last person you had in
your room?
: roommates, fema

15. Is your roOm clean?
: surprsingly yes. sa bahay pero sa dorm, exact opposite

16. Can you speak another language?
: english. ilonggo, kapampangan... hehehe

17. What are you going to do tomorrow?
: uwi ng manila

18. What is in store for your future?
: madami

19. Who was the last band you saw live?
: yung live band sa lacxo hehehe

21. Do you take care of your friends
while they're sick?
: yes

23. Do you go for?
: a man? basta yung love ako as i am

24. When was the last time you
purchased something over P500?
: nung asa eastwood kami ni gino, bumili ako ng jacket worth 800

25. What are your pet peeves?
: plastic, sinungaling

26. Favorite colors?
: blue!

27. Who is your favorite person to have
a serious conversation with?
: madami eh!
28. Where was the last place you drove?
: wala pa akong car :(

29. Nickname?
: raych

30. Where do you want to go?
: sa dorm or sa apt

31. What do you want to do?
: matulog

32. What are you wearing?
: white top and brown skirt

33. What brand of?
: huh? ano daw?

34. Did someone make you mad???
: kanina

35. Why???
: -basta

36. When is your birthday?
: nov151989

37. Who was the last person to sleep
over at your house?
: quengers

45. How many speeding tickets do you
have?
: none yet

46. How many kids do you want to have?
: 5

47. Do you like coffee?
: ok lang

48. Why are you doing this survey?
: wla.

49. Who was the last person to call
you?
: mom

51. Who did you last text?
: aa

52. Who last texted you?
: gino

53. What does the 12 msg in ur inbox
say?
: ewan ko na

55. What are you craving for?
:bakasyon!

56. Whats the closest red thing to you?
: MY BAG

57. Biggest turn off in the opposite
sex?
: MADUMING NAILS!

58. What are you listening to?
: silence

someday i hope i'll marry

2008-03-05T22:32:00.000-08:00

i was browsing friendster bulletins when i came across a title, my marrying age is 28...

me? my "ideal" marrying age is 30... but the again, it may all change...]

since my boyfriend gino is 29 already, i may have to rethink my marrying age, maybe he wants to marry earlier, or later, but then again, when i think about it, it;s too early to be thinking that way, but you girls, or people in general, we like to think about our future, so much so, that though we aren't really sure of the outcome, we still try to think about it...

anyway, i told him what i thought, and he just said that we'll see, we'll see, in time we'll get to that...

anyway, aren't you wondering why i'm so sure that it's himthat i want to marry? well i just feel that way, and he told me things that i want and love him to be my better part, but oh well, that's a story for another day... hehehe

tets your eyes!

2008-03-05T22:31:00.001-08:00

Can u find the B?

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Once youve found the b

Find The Mistake.

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWUXYZ

Once Youve Found The Mistake

Find the 1

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Once you found the 1..............

Find the 6

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9999699999999999999999999999999999
9999999999999999999999999999999999
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once youve found the 6...

Find the N (it's hard!!)

MMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMNMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMM
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once you've found the N...

Find the Q...
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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flirting tips daw oh

2008-03-05T22:28:00.000-08:00

♥Girls:If you want to hold
his
hand, gently bump
into it a couple of times.
Guys: Grab it if it happens
more than
once.

Cuddling

Girls : When you want to
cuddle with
him,
tell him you're cold
Guys : Automatically move
closer to
her.

Movies

Girls : During a movie, if
he puts his
arm
around you, tilt your head
on his
shoulder
Guys : Lift her chin up and
kiss her.

Loving each other

Guys : When she tells you
she loves
you,
look deep into her eyes,
give her a
peck on
the lips, and
tell her you love her too...
And mean
it.

Laying below the stars

Girls : When you're both
laying under
the
stars, put your head on his
chest and
close your
eyes as you listen to his
steady heart
beat
Guys : Whisper in her ear
and link your
hands with
hers.

hello! blog world! im back!

2008-03-05T22:13:00.000-08:00

hi! im back from the dead! hehehe
dead from the blog world i mean

hmmmm... ano na nga ba nangyari sakin?

nagkaboyfriend na ako! Yihee! (actually the one that i was talking about in my last blog, sya yung boyfriend ko... ayos noh? hehehe

bagsak ako ng dalawang subjects(chem40 at math26)at 4.0 sa isa (bio70)omg! ganon talaga minsan kelangan mong bumagsak para makabangon ulit! hehehe naks!

ano pa ba? dalawa na ang aking org... Lumabay-labay Club '57 at PHILOBIOSCIENTIA The UPLB Life Sciences Society! oha! hehehe

im running for pubcom head of Phileos at elections na later

lasing akong pumunta kina gino kagabi hehehe

at nag-uumiyak ako dahil di ako nakaattend ng elections ng primas...

yubn lang muna siguro sa ngayon dahil yun palang ang naiisip kong isulat, well anyway, im back again from the dead world! hehehe

boyfriend

2007-06-12T11:58:00.001-07:00

ngayon ko lang naalala, the person that's cold to me that i was talking about kanina, tinanong niya if may pasok na yung "bf" ko, since ang alam kong alam niyang wala so tinext ko ng bestfriend? tapos, sabi niya dapat magkaboyfriend na ko kasi baka mahuli ako sa byahe, baka magaya ako sa kanya... tapos nagreply ako ng bakit kelangan bang mauna? tapos ayun...

ang pinagtataka ko lang, bakit niya sinabi yun?

yun lang...

drove away another one

2007-06-12T11:03:00.000-07:00

i'm not so sure, pero feeling ko iniiwasan niya ako...
well, it all started nung monday, hindi kasi ako nagtext ning monday kasi nga nagcrash yung hard disk ko, so pumunta kaming cubao, where kuya oskee lived (siya yung aayos ng laptop), eh yun, tapos puntang gilmore to buy new hard disk tapos ayun inistall na...tapos naiwan ko yung phone ko sa bahay at super late na kaming nakauwi...

ayun, hindi nga ko nagtext monday, then kahapon nagtext na ko nung umaga, tapos parang sabi niya malling tayo, tapos sabi ko naman ayoko, tinatamad ako, kasi napagod ako kahapon, ayun, hindi ko nakwento sa kanya tapos at first parang okay lang, nung patagal na ng patagal medyo parang nagiging cold na, ewan ko kung bakit, tapos yun nag-gateway pala siya mag-isa niya, at hanggang 7 daw siya dun... kasi coding ang kotse niya, naisip ko naman hanggang 3 pa pwede, eh ayoko ko nang magcomment kaya ayun...tapos nung tinanong ko kung ala talaga siyang makakasama ayun, dun na nagstart ang cold treatment...

ewan ko kung bakit ganon, peroo ano bang ginawa ko? dahil lang ba ang lame ng dahilan ko? ewan ko, sana imagination ko lang na naging cold siya, kasi sayang naman yung friendship, super magka-wavelength pa naman kami... sayang talaga... para siyang mikho, fye, queng rolled into one ...

sayang talaga...tsk tsk...

whatever happened?

2007-04-13T13:51:00.000-07:00

will someone tell me where the hell is pochoy labog?!
how 'bout miro valera?!
wala lang naalala ko lang sila
it seems that wala ata silang bagong album?
missing in action?
or wala lang talaga akong access sa radio?
hay
i just wish i'd meet them someday!
weehee
pag may time, pag may time
pag inaya ko kaya si mika or si queng sa gig nila
payag kaya sila?
si mikho kaya o si fye?
hmm...
wag muna
la pa akong free time
summer classes muna
haaay
buhay estudyante

pareho kami

2007-04-13T13:30:00.000-07:00

hahaha
wala lang dun sa commercial ni camille pratts
yung campaign ad na nakalimutan ko na kung sinong kandidato
yung top niya
well, meron din ako nun
hehe
yun yung suot ko nung induction at delibs
well medyo inis pa nga ako dun sa top na yun nung induction kasi napansin ni irene na yun din yung suot ko nung delibs
ayoko pa naman sa laht yung nag-uulit ng suot
at napapansin
kaya yun medyo bad mood ako nung unang part ng induction
hindi naman talaga dapat yun yung suot ko eh
may dalawa pa akong options liban dun
kaya lang
hiniram ni lala yung una tapos ni fem yung pangalawa
eh kasi wala pa siliang isusuot nun
ayun
tapos matching pa yung outfits namin
off shoulder na oversized ans shorts
kasi nga "destiny's child " kami
nung una ako lang dapat eh wala na daw silang maisip kaya yun
okay lang naman sakin
medyo nainis nga lang ako kasi nga nakita na umulit ako kaya yun
well okay lang pareho naman kami ni camille pratts hehe
kinda compensates right?
hehe

speaking of a better person...

2007-04-13T12:11:00.000-07:00

speaking of being a better person
i need to lose weight
i this pic i think i need not explain why
ayun
so siguro first na bawasan ay carbs
which means bawal na ang three rice sa isang kainan
next stop ayang pagkain ng hindi naman gutom
next ay ang moni which means mga 4-6 drinks lang especially pag beer
oh my
ano bang magagawa ko kung masarap kumain at uminom?
at nakakatamad mag-exercise
haay
minsan naiisip ko, kaya siguro walang attracted sakin
saka naisip ko din na if i don't love myself, how can someone love me?
and i think one way of showing that you love yourself is through your appearance
especially your weight because it determines your health status right?
saka presentable naman siguro ako
tingin ko naman presentrable ako
yung tummy ko lang talaga ang panira eh
hehe
kasi ang payat ng limbs ko, ang laki niya
siguro tingin nila sa akin preggy
so i guess bring on the tummy control! hehe

LONG TIME NO SEE!

2007-04-13T11:56:00.000-07:00

haaay
naiinis ako sa sarili ko
bakit?
kasi feeling ko simula nung napadpad ako sa elbi, nawalan ako ng time sa highschool friends ko
ewan ko ba
parang naging indifferent ako
puro forward ng quotes
walang real conversation
i know that i'm no great conversationalist but,
i'm just disappointed at myself
kasi parang i'm pushing myself away
tuwing may lakad hindi ako pwede
ewan ko
siguro nafifeel nila that i'm not trying
but i really am
hindi lang talaga mag-jive yung schedules
ewan ko ba
since second sem
i always felt left out
ewan ko
kasi no tv no radio
wala man lang akong maikwento walang mapagusapan
ang hirap eh
i really really really miss my friends
aND it's hard to see that i'm slowly drifting apart while i'm holding on
i want to catch up with them
BUT WHY THE HELL IT SEEMS DAMN HARD!!!
ewan
basta this summer class, i'll really really try my best to be a better person
and that includes learning how to be a good conversationalist
not jail myself
watch tv, listen to the radio...
just catch up with my good ol' friends
BECAUSE I SO DAMN MISS THEM!!!

kanina...

2007-04-13T11:44:00.000-07:00

kanina andami kong naiisip isulat ngayon wala...
ewan...
writer's block?
hehe
ewan ko ba..
pag wala ako sa harap ng computer, andami kong naiisip...
pero pag ayan na nabblangko ako...
haaay...
i just want to write my thoughts... kasi minsan...
wala lang parang andaming realizations eh...
kaya ayun....
anyway...
siguro i have to keep a journal so i can jot down my thoughts...
ewan
siguro nga...
basta sulat na lang uli ako siguro mamaya pag may naisip na ako...

MOVIE MARATHON GALORE!!!

2007-04-04T05:53:00.000-07:00

well, as of today, since sunday night, i watche more or less, thirteen to fifteen movies, well galing no? andami ko na palang napanood in just four days! hehe nakakapagod din pala ang magmovie-marathon... oo, napagod talaga ako, when i watched nacho libre, i fell asleep, when i woke up, the movie is finished! hehe... so yun... ala lang... narealize ko lang na if magsusummer ako, movie marathon days are OVER! whheeew!

PHYSICS3!

2007-04-04T05:46:00.000-07:00

wow! nakakuha ako ng slot sa physics3!

now, i have three problems...

ONE: if i will pass math14!

TWO: where will i live... well i already have A dorm, but now i'm not so sure if i really want to live there... because, uno, it's kinda small, dos, it's communal, i mean there are guys in the same floor as you and tres, it's kinda far from campus...

THREE: it's so damn streesful! imagine, having to study for a full month with only sunday as "free time"

oh... well, the hardships of life...

BLOCK I1 SEM ENDER!!!

2007-04-01T09:01:00.000-07:00

last thursday, after our lab exam....
nag-sem ender ang block i1, na according sa aking blockmate na si jobert, ang second most active block ng bio! *woohoo! yeay!*
ayun... so we held a sem ender sa la vista pansol...
dami ngang sumama eh...
sa dami hirap bilangin...
hmmmm....

10 kami!
out of 25! dami no? hehe
si niko at si joyce na naunang umalis, si pat, dez, kriza, ako, jobert, via, jc at kayeh... ayun...
well at least, may activities ang block namin di ba? kesa wala...

ayun...

masaya naman...
kaya lang nung nag-vivideoke na eh nagkatulugan na ata lahat!
hehe
ang funny nga eh kasi paggising ko, ang kumakanta na lang si kriza at dez...

ayun...

sana maulit uli!

hangover!

2007-04-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

okay, it's our induction ball, well it went fairly well, i got an award (everbody got a spoof award)...

well the thing here is i got drunk...

as in heavily drunk....

okay at first, i thought i'll just have a few... but 6-7 drinks later, one of my brods, challenged us to a drinking marathon... well, me being a good sport joined them... many many drinks later, my head was spinning, i got talkative and believe it or not, i went to the pool and took a swim... (just so you know, i don't have any spare underwear)

right-o, i just did something i have no control of... as in nakakahiya talaga, i was so drunk that was even dancing with the other drunkards(my sisses), well guess what? i went home wet, i just changed my shorts but i went home dripping wet...

not only that, but i also barfed... not once... but twice, first is in the comfort room in the resort, and second is in the jeepney on the way to the dorm... oh my.... such a shame...

but i think it's really alright and that i shouldn't feel awkward because first of all i'm not the only one who drunk to death but also my brods and sisses... i'm not the only one who acted weird but my brods and sisses, also acted weird... so why should i feel akward... and besides we're brothers and sisters so we look after each other and not make each other feel awkward... right?

i alos feel lucky because thogh my roommates, lala and fema are drunk like me,well, we still try to look after one another... then there's also my "ninang iza" who told me what to do...

it's not my first time to drink, but it is my first time to drink that much trhat i'm so drunk i fell asleep immediately after my back touced the bed...

it's also my first ime to experience that damn hangover... well....

just a day

2007-01-11T01:16:00.000-08:00

isa na naman araw ay lumipas...
oo...
malungkot ako ngayon...
dahil

>nagasgasan ako nung pe namin... pano naman kasi hindi pa kami saUPCo nagswimming. . .
nag-landdrill kami sa walang tubig na pool ng baker hall. . . ayun naging model tloy ao ng band-aid ng hindi oras...

>nag-long exam kami sa math... ayun andami... andami ko na naman hindi nasagutan.... haaay... ewan ko ba... pero nag-aral naman ako...

> ayun nakita ko nga pala sya... wala lang... ayun medyo tumaba sya... at may nililigawan na ata... pero nalungkot lang ao ng konti indi dahil sa crush ko pa rin siya at iniisip ang mga "what might have been" pero nalulungkot ako kasi iniisip ko kung ano nga ba talga ang nakita o sa kanya samantalang NAPAKARAMI dyang iba. . .

>nalulungkot ako dahil parang feeling ko nakalimutan na ako.... hmmm pano ba yun i-explain... kasi yung mga highschool friends ko yung tinuturi kong mga best friends... eh simula nung ngasimula yung taon parang we're starting to drift apart na... katulad ni queng, may iba na "ata" siyang priority si mikho din... sina milca... ayun... feeling o sobrang left-out ako... and one thing that's really separating me from them is that... i really don't have a "love life" dati iniisip ko... "so ano ngayon if wala nga akong love life? may mawawala ba sa akin? wala naman... pero i realized, masarap pala yung kakwentuhan ka din na yung iba ung depth i mean... kausap in a different way... basta...

ayun lang. . .
realizations of a stupid mind...
hehehe

woot!

2007-01-06T09:29:00.000-08:00

hahaha nakapost na din ako sa blog niya!

how pathetic can you get?

2007-01-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

how pathetic can i get?
it's 12.48am i won't sleep yet because i am reading reading a blog of someone who i don't really know personally, then i got hooked...
the thing here is i want to post a comment but i can't because that bastard disabled comments from non-tabulas users...
what the heck! so i decided to sign-up and damn him! i need to sign-up for a new email address just so i could comment because tabulas can't send emails to yahoo... what a painstaking task i chose to do... heck... just for the sake of comment.. and why the hell i chose to get throughbthzt just to post? i don't know i guess i can relate to him and i kinda want to share something... well, that's life what can i do?

2007-01-06T04:44:00.000-08:00

hmmm...
what now?
how's m first week of the year?
good but still routinary...
i resolve to be more...
outgoing this year...
well it's just the first week so i guess iys not that bad right?
well, i returned to elbi on tuesdaty morning
and guess what?
the guy i sat beside on the bus was really cute...
well i didn't plan to sit beside him...
at all...
it's just that i wanted to alone first so i can have a seat by the window but my bag is so big i just can't carry it further so i'm forced to sit beside "cute guy" but then, on first look he didn't look good...
at all....
well, how's that for an elbi come back! hehehe
then on my math class, that day was the first time i had known that ana katrina mamangun is my classmate!
i really had no idea!
but then i guess now i have...
then on that afternoon, i rushed to finish my eng2 report and the sosc reaction paper...
i still haven't found the time and right words to write what my ninog pipo asks of me...
well, i'm damned..
wednesday, well i submitted my rushed papers...
my crush, was a bio-lect exam topnotcher nd i'm not *as if*
that day i found out that he was a cs
thus we gave him the nickname cs
well, sosc, cs talked to me
and i'm so overwhelmed?
i never talked to him...
so did so i guess i 'm just shocked he did...
though very impersonal...
thursday, math
i forgot to greet kei with a handshake in math class...
i guess i'll just do it next math class...
chem lab...
hmmm...
hate it...
friday, sosc, he talked to me...
again...
for the second time...
well,
i guess not bad for the frist of week of the year huh?
^-^

what might have been

2006-12-26T04:32:00.000-08:00

haaay. . .
it's been a month since last post
ayun. . .
dami na nangyari. . .
phileos na ako!
heheh after the tedious process of application
i'm proud to say that i worked hard for it though there was i a time na dapat magqquit na ako
ayun iba pala ang feeling
so yun
the past month has been a bliss
sobrang bilis ng mga nanagyari
ah. . . natapos na yung chem lect and bio lab exams
nagkachristmas party yung block i!!!
which was really really FUN!!!
tapos yung phileos din
kahit medyo syempre dahil bago hirap pang makisama pero sobrang FUN pa din. . .
this past christmas,
i noticed something christmas isn't like what it used to be. . .
dati sobrang super festive
ngayon hindi na masyado. . .
ayun basta iba na yung chrismas last year kesa sa christmas ngayon. . .
ayun. . .
it's hard to describe the feeling that suddenly this christmas is not what it used to be. . .
especially ngayon
parang umoonti na yung relatives ko na umuuwi sa tarlac for christmas. . .
ayun lang. . .
para masaya pa rin. . .
all in all. . .
heheh
yun lang!!!

USO NA TALAGA?

2006-11-25T08:19:00.000-08:00

uso na ba talaga emo nagyon? hmmm. . . hindi ko lam yun eh. . . so the whole"rockista" thingy is in. . . so first its thugs and yo mama trend now its emo. . .hmmm. . . it just got me thinking

well oh well

2006-11-17T02:43:00.000-08:00

natapos na din ang pagreregister
i'm now officially a student for the second sem
hehehe la lang
you see, i'm kinda lucky
because OUR gave me the 19 units i need
and well, not to be boastful or anything,
i need not to fall in queue to enlist
well, i just need the nstp but i think i'll get it next sem
anyway
it's just fem and me tonight
un our room 'coz lala and joanne had gone home
oh well
what a life
i guess we'll just watch movies and eat right?
i saw allen on when we were in line for our form5
and i can say that he's very good looking!!!
HOMAY!!!
i think he lost his weight
then. . .
i don't know
he just looks better
i also saw him
well you know him
i guess
then FRANC!!!
hahaha!!!
si franc!!!
nakita ko si franc!!!
ang cute talaga ni FRANC!!!
WEE!!!
hehehe yun lang
kanina pala nung papunta kaming netopia
may nakasabay kami
na magboyfriend
i kinda overheard their conversation
about thier unlimitext
i think when they register. . .
sabay sila
wala lang
i just thought that if i ever had a boyfriend i don't want him to tell me what to do
well, i guess you'll never know right?
only GOD and time can tell. . .
ayokong magsalita ng tapos kasi baka kapusin. . .
di ba?
tapos pala nanood kami ng "a walk to remember"
wala lang
i just realized that if i ever meet a man like
"landon carter"
i will have no hesitations to marry him. . .
well i guess that kind of man only exists in novels
tinanong ni claire sa testi niya bakit wala pa akong boyfriend. . .
actually hindi ko din alam]
siguro kasi boring ako
corny
ewan
you tell me
yun lang!!!

2006-11-15T22:38:00.001-08:00

ayun balik lb na naman ako. . .
hehehe
thank you nga pala sa mga bumati ng happy birthday!!!
hehehe!!!
enjoy tuloy birthday ko!!!
basta masaya naman thanks uli!!!

2006-11-15T22:38:00.000-08:00

ayun balik lb na naman ako. . .
hehehe
thank you nga pala sa mga bumati ng happy birthday!!!
hehehe!!!
enjoy tuloy birthday ko!!!
basta masaya naman thanks uli!!!

sembreak

2006-11-15T22:36:00.000-08:00

i really really hate boredom!i hate days like these that i've nothing to doi've watched all the movies we have on dvd till i droppedi answered a sudoku puzzle which, as it turns out an error cause when i looked at the answer key, the answer key was wrong so as it turns out, there's no answerDAMN!!!oh well, i'll just try answering anotherwell, as far as the sembreak is concerned, i think i've enjoyed it beacuse :1. i really enjoyed the comapny of my boyfriend (my laptop notebook) haha! got you there didn't i? well, it's been a while since we go together. . . hmmm july i think? hahaha. . .now i'm contemplating if i'll bring him to school. . .hmmm. . . i think i'll leave him here and if there comes a time that i badly need a computer, i think that's the time i;ll bring him!!! hehehe well. . .2. i enjoyed the company of my friends!!! well, after how many months that we didn't get to see each other then poof!!! there i got to see them, we it just feels so happy!!!3. well i get to sleep a lot!!! and watch movies as much as i lkie!!! as you can see, i'm getting all the sleep i can!!! and also all the tv and dvd i can!!! hahaha!!!i can't really enumerate all the reasons why i've enjoyed the sembreak but these are just few of my reasons. as the sembreak approaches its final week, well i have to say i rally enjoyed it.

WAAAAHHH!!!! sa wakas!!!

2006-10-26T04:00:00.000-07:00

tapos na din ang finals!!!
weeeh!!!!
happy happy na toh!!!
eon!!!
nakita ko siya nung pabalik ako galing cem
dun ako nag-finals ng math
cem function room 204
sa chem
dun ako sa ibslh1
dun sa lect hall ng bio class kay sir duka
yun
la lang
suot na naman niya yung espana niya na shirt
feeler!!!
hehehe
joke lang!!!
tapos nakachucks ata siya na world edition o fake yun?
i'm not sure
pero as far as i know
hmmm. . .
im so over hin na noh?!
hehehe
naman!!!
ang tanging hiling ko eh sana. . .
makapasa ako
ngayong sem
bawi na lang next sem!!!
wahehehe
yun!!!]
sarap ng tulog ko kanina
ansarap pala talaga matulog!!!
dati eh tinitake for granted ko ang tulog!!!
ngayon!!!
hindi na!!!
waaah!!!
sabi nga ni jerry,
pakasaya na!!!
hehehe
yun lang!!!

weh? hindi nga? promise

2006-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

eon. . .
hehehe
mejo bad mood kagabi
sheeesh naman
actually happy ako nung mga afternoon. . .
pero nung mga bandang 9. . .
or 10 maybe. . .
basta after nung showing nung films
medyo hindi gumanda yung pakiramdam ko
i don't know why
maybe it's a sudden sense of utopia
then follwed by a sudden blow of loneliness
siguro nga moody ako
oo!!! moody ako!!!
yes!!! i'm moody!!!
eon. . .
so i let the night pass
hindi na lang muna ako kumibo sa mga roomates ko
syempre baka kung ano pa masabi ko
moody ako pero kalmado!!!
hehehe
yun
eh may nakatext ako na friend]
sabi niya. . .
bakit daw ako nagddrama
sabi ko la lang napaisip lang. . .]
eon. . .
nahulaan niya yung iniisip ko
sabi ko
hindi kasi niya alam na nag-eexist ako
yun
so sabi niyaq
wag ko nang aksayahin ang oras at energy ko sa isang tao hindi naman pala ako napapansin or walang pakialam sa akin
oo nga naman
tama di ba?!
so yun. . .
i decided. . .
wag na nga lang
hirap umasa di ba?
yun. . .
nilagay ko nga siya sa burn book!!!! wahehehe!!!
yun lang. . .
naisip ko din na okay din pala yung ugali kong mejo reserved
at hindi agad nag-ttrust at mejo tahimik
la lang
kasi mas malala siguro ang sitwasyon if hindi ako ganito
so yun

tapos yun
nung nagising ako kanina
okay na ko!!!
nakakatawa nga kasi nung bumili kami sa baba
sa sc
which is tatlong beses so tatlong beses kaming bumaba
nakita ni fem si norbert
ako hindi
tapos sabi pa ni fem eh close encounter
dahil nga daw muntik na kaming magkabanggaan
hindi ko naman siya nakita eh
sorry siya
he missed half of his lifetime
hehehe
tapos kanina pumunta kaming cem
at ceat
hinanap yung pag-eexaman sa math11 finals!!!
whhooohoo!!!
eon. . .
tapos natutunan ko na ang beat!!!
hehehe
la lang!!!
achievement!!!
kelangan bukas mag-aral na sa math11!!!
sana makapasa!!!
yun lang!!!

ayun

2006-10-23T00:49:00.000-07:00

so tapos na ang chem 16 finals. . .
yun. . .
feeling ko bagsak ako. . .
di ako nakaaral na ayos. . .
so super stock knowledge and dramahan. . .
eh kasi naman noh!!!
nakakatamad kayang mag-aral!!!
so yun!!!
hehehe. . .
yun. . .
feeling ko kilala na ko ni driver!!! (yung tawag namin sa kanya. . .)
yun kasi yung dahil sa movie. . .
eh nag group message kasi ako
eh tapos yun
narecieve niya
tapos sbi niya nood daw siya nung isang movie
eh tapos ang pinagreply ko eh si jo
so yun hanggang yung kanina
eh tinanong ba naman ng roomate ko if kilala niya si raych
eh tapos nagmamadali ako kanina papuntang tv room taos tnawag ako ni lala na raych
so yun giveaway na yun. . .
kilala na niya ako. . .
haaay. . .
good luck. . .
akala ko nung una pa-colleg na ko magkakabuhay pag-ibig na ako. . .
yung seryoso na di crush crush lang. . .
yun pala hindi. . .
dapat siguro baguhin ko na yung bad traits ko. . .
hindi lang para magkarelationship or anything. . .
para din yun sa ikabubuti ko eh. . .
yun. . .

ako na naman!!!

2006-10-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

yun. . .
so magffinals na sa monday!!!
hindi pa ako nag-aaral sa chem!!!
medyo malungkot ako ngayon
kasi unang una. . .
hmmm. . .
miss ko na ang bahay. . .
tapos miss ko na rin sina
mikho
jeffrey
mika
queng
yun. . .
lahat ng friends ko. . .
excited na kong umuwi sa friday!!!
may problema pa ako. . .
kasi yung lab reports ko naiwan ko sa physci
eh pag wala yun magkaka 4.0 ako
eh kailangan pang mag-removal
yun. . .
sana makita ko
tapos na depress din ako dun sa tanong ni mikho
na ano daw mangyayari sa kanya if after 5 yirs walang nangyari sa buhay pag-ibig niya
eh la lang. . .
naisip ko
wlang magkakagusto sakin romantically
sa nga
1. wala akong kwenta
2. hindi ako maganda
3. boring ako ng sobra sobra. . .
yun basta hindi ako ganon. . .
so yun. . .
sabi ni mikho wag ko daw isipin yun. . .
yun so medyo gumaan na feeling ko. . .
sana talaga makauwi na ko. . .
tapos lumindol pa ng tatlong beses kagabi!!!
yun 3 tyms!!!
naramdaman ko yung 2!!!
creepy!!!
yun. . .
narinig ko yung audio file ni cofibean!!!
hehehe
nakaktuwa!!!
weee. . .
yun lang!!!

oo nga ganon yun. ..

2006-10-20T00:56:00.000-07:00

so yun. ..
hehehe
nabura na ang number niya sa phone ko!!!
i think that's the best decision. . .
yun. . .
so natapos na ang laht. . .
well, finals na next week. . .
medyo kabado. . .
first time mag-finals eh. . .
sana pasado kahit tres lang. . .
o sabi na eh. . .
mababaw lang talaga ako. . .
kahapon pala
nakta ko si franc
la lang
nakasmile siya!!!
ang cute niya talaga!!!
hehehe
eon...
kanina nag-practical na sa chem lab
yun
okay naman
sana pasado
yun lang naman ang hiling ko!!!
hehehe
yun
proud nga ako sa sarili ko eh!!!
kasi nabuksan ko yung bunsen burner!!!
balak ko talagang hindi buksan yun!!!
eh may nakatingin na instructor so sinubukan ko na rin. . .
yun. . .
so much for that. . .
hehehe
basta!!! bottom line is ayaw ko na sa kanya!
at mag-aaral akong mabuti para sa finals!!!
okaY!!!
yun lanG!!!

destiny?

2006-10-12T23:26:00.000-07:00

naglalaro ba talaga ang tadhana?
kasi naman...
di ba nga nag-promise na ko na ayaw ko na sa kanya...
tapos kaninag 10 o clock
nagtext ba naman
quote lang naman
eh di nagreply din ako ng quote
tapos yun
nagreply siya ng smiley
o anong gusto niyiang gawin ko
eh di hindi na ako nagreply
tapos yun
eh hininhintay ko si fem na dumating
kasi nga punta kami ng reading room ng ic
para dun sa post lab
eh kumain muna kami sa sc
yun nung paupo na ko
katapat ko pala siya
yun
kala ko di ko na makikita
kung kelan ayaw ko na saka pa
nakakainis noh?
haaay...
bahala na nga
sige
yun lang
peace out

hoooooooooooh!!!

2006-10-12T04:19:00.000-07:00

busy ang week ko next week!!!
grabeh!!!
sobra!!!
mjo inis ako ngayong week
mjo alam ko din kung bakit
kasi nag-umpisa yun nung saturday
so tinext ko siya
yun
tapos
masaya na sana
kaya lang nung wednesday
na-realize ko
ayoko na
kasi
unang una
ako yung laging nauuna
tapos parang hinahanap na niya
si archie
tapos parang ayaw naman niya
kaya wag na lang
andami namang iba eh
kawalan niya yun
hindi akin
bahala siya
hindi ko na siya ittext
may funny pa nga na nangyari
sobrang lungkot ko nung hapon na yun
dahil nga iniisip ko yung text thingy namin
tapos bumaba ako
may binayaran ako sa office
laking gulat ko nun
kasi nakasalubong ko i franc
basta
la lang
ang layo pa niya nun
kita ko na siya agad
tapos napangiti ako agad
iba talaga effect ni franc
hehehe
yun lang
shinare ko lang...

2006-10-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

haaay. . .ang ganda talga ng mga phrase of y ni mikho. . .sobrang nakakarelate talaga!!! gaya na lang nito. . . >>>"it's like a two way mirror, as she looks upon herself, happy and beautiful, she does't notice me on the other side sad and still waiting"di ba?! sobrang nakakarelate?!oo alam kong minsan nagkakatinginan kami ni friendster...at sa tuwing mangyayari yun...medyo umiiwas ako ng tingin...pero di ba?!hindi ba niya nahahalata?!kung alam niya lang!!!lagi ko siyang naiisip!!!lalo na pag naririnig ko yung YOUR SONG!!!waaah!!! badtrip talaga...siya ang saya niya...well, ewan ko lang din...kasi ang dami niyang kasamang babae eh...well baka friendly lang talaga siya sa girls...pero walanamna siyang nililigawan or girlfriend...hindi naman sa hindi ako masaya...masaya ako ha!!!eh kaya lang...yun nga...naiisip ko kasi siya lagi...ewan ko ba...infatuation lang nga yata to...eh kasi naman pag nakikita ko siya...ang saya ko. . .well...ganon talaga...nasa ganun stage ata lahat ng nf...hehehe...o late bloomer lang ako...yun lang naman yun...eto pa mga phrase of the day ni mikho...
>>>"it's hard not to love him
him with the smile
as warm as the sun
and he who feels
nothing
cold
blind
and
numb"
ayan!!! nakakarelate na naman!!!sobra!!!bakit kasi hindi ako friendly?!kung friendly lang ako...eh di sana friends na kami...bakit kasi mahiyain pa ako?!haaay...sana talaga!!!well...i'll just wait till something good happens...waaah!!!eto pa isa...
>>>" i always see you close to me
but why can't you realize
that with you
i always want to be..."
di ba?!actually not that close naman...but lose enough...siguro pag wala pa rin nangyari ngayong freshmean year ko...tungkol sa kanya...siguro i'll just say hi...la naman masama dun ...di ba?!yun...basta ...bahala na...malayo pa naman eh...problemahin ko na lang... pag malapit nag matapos ang acad year...yun lang uli...oo nga pala...nirephrase ko yung first qoute ...kasi naman galing kay mikho...so sa babae niya yun sinasabi...eh ako sa lalaki ko yun sinasabi ...so yun...yun lang...

at siya na nga yun. . . sana di nya mabasa to. . .

2006-10-02T00:27:00.000-07:00

hmmm. . .first time ko yatang gagawin to. . .pero sige na nga. . .kasi naman. . .na-realize ko lang to unti-unti. . .nung isang araw kasi . . .nagsend si mikho nung phrase of the day niya. . .yun. . .sabi kasi niya. . .basta parang you're always close to me. . .but do you realize its you i always want to be with. . .parang ganon. . .tapos naisip ko nga siya. . . si friendster. . .eh kasi. . .yun nga. . .hindi nga kami close. . .alam ko yun. . .pero parang. . .i always see him. . .sa hallway ng dorm. . .sa pe class ko. . .dahil nga magkasabay kami ng pe. . .yun. . .tapos sa sc. . .nakikita ko din siya. . .tapos dati. . .parang nakatingin siya sa akin. . .ewan ko kung sa akin nga yun. . .pero kasi. . .parang tuwing nakikita ko siya. . .nakatingin siya sa kin. . .ewan ko kung nakatingin siya sa akin. . .kasi nakatingin ako sa kanya. . .ewan. . .siguro naweiweirdohan lang siya sa kin. . .o nag-aasume lang ako masyado. . .baka coincidence lang yun . . .na napapatingin siya sa direksyon ko. . .yun nga lang siguro yun. . .siguro. . .nagtataka siya. . .paano ko kaya siya nakilala. . .kasi nga di ba?magkasabay tayo ng pe. . .eh nakajersey siya nun. . .tinandaan ko yung last name na nakalagay sa jersey niya. . .tapos tinignan ko sa listahan ng dorm. . .tapos dalawa yung surname niya dun . . .kaya tinignan ko sa friendster. . .luckily. . .may pic siya. . .yun. . .nakakahiya nga eh. . .kasi . . .di ba. . .may who's viewd me. . .eh tapos . . .nung day na viniew ko siya. . .nag-internet uli ako kinagabihan. . .andun na din siya sa who's viewed me ko. . .nakakahiya nga eh. . .nalaman niyang viniview ko siya. . .haaay. . .sana. . .sooner or later. . .makilala ko siya. . .as in personally. . .as in total acquaintance kami. . .hindi yung ako lng. . .accidentally. . .kilala siya ni jo. . .tapos blockmate siya ni lota. . .la lang. . .ewan ko kung ano to. . .pero pag nakikita ko siya. . .napapasmile ako. . .eh dati naman sa ibang crush ko walang ganon. . .kahit kay franc. . .alam mo yung parang kahit ano hindi ka magffrown pag nakita mo siya. . .tapos yun. . .pag nakikita ko siya. . .wala lang. . .ang saya!!!yun. . .sana magkachance. . .na magkakilala kami. . .haaay. . .siguro iaadd ko na lang siya sa friendster. . .kahit na nakakahiya o ano pa man. . .hehe. . .saka naisip ko rin yung isang quote. . ."fate can only take things too far. . .it's up to you to make it happen"yun. . .naisip ko lang. . .na kung wala nga akong gagawin. . .wala lang din. . .pano kung may something din pala siya. . .eh tapos naintimidate lang siya sakin. . .wala naman sigurong masama. . .[nag-assume na naman ako!] malay mo lang naman diba? wala naman masama. . .tinanong ko nga yun kay queng eh. . .sabi niya wala naman daw masama. . .yun. . .sana talaga magkakilala kami. . .yun. . .kasi naman. . .nahihirapan din ako. . .kasi lagi siyang nasa isip ko. . .nung isang araw nga napanaginipan ko siya. . .ewan ko kung bakit. . .tapos the weird thing is. . .si laura andun. . .weird noh?eh hindi naman kami close ni laura. . .basta yun. . .sana lang. . .hahaha. . .yun lang. . .sigurado akong di niya to mababasa. . .at sigurado din ako na pag nabasa niya ito hindi niya alam na siya to. . .or yun yung inassume ko. . .hehehe. . .basta yun. . .at least medyo. . .narelease na yung nararamdaman ko. . .hehehe. . .yun lang. . .^ - ^

at nasalanta ang los banos. . .

2006-10-02T00:26:00.000-07:00

uhmmm. . .nakakatuwa ng wednesday . . .kasi naman. . .eh di. . .brown-out nung gabi. . .eh tapos medyo late pa kami natulog. . .taposnung pagkagisng namin . . .eh di bumaba kami. . .pagdating namin sa baba. . .grabeh!!!ang taas ng baha. . .inaayos pa lang nila kuya joel yung mga bench. . .yun yung magsisilbing tulay. . .eh yon. . .tapos sa sc[sweet cravings]. . .grabeh!!!ang haba ng pila. . .halos buong men's dorm ata eh. . .andun. . .eh tapos andun siya. . .syempre yung crush ko. . .hindi si franc. . .si friendster. . .nauna kami . . .pero mga after 5 minutes. . .dumating siya at ang kanyang posse. . .yun tapos mgaa after 20 minutes. . .umalis din sila. . .kasi dun sila bumili dun sa parang merienda stand ng sc. . .yun. . .so far. . .that's the best 20 minutes of my life!!!wahaha!!!imagine. . .yun na yung pinakamalapit na distance na nakita ko siya!!!waaahhh!!!yun. . .siguro . . .after 30 minutes pa kami nakabili. . .eh kasi naman noh!!!naubusan kami ng kanin. . .pero okay lang yun. . .tapos. . .nung katanghalian. . .eh nagdecide ang wing namin na paakyatin na lang. . .yung mga first floor. . .gawa nga nung sobrang binaha sila. . .yun. . .okay nga eh. . .kasi tulong-tulong. . .tapos yun. . .nagkantahan kami sa room. . .kahit walang gitara. . .eh may song-hits kasi si fem. . .basically kami lang ni fem ang kumakanta. . .nakikisabay lang sina jo at lala. . .yun. . .buti nga hindi lalong lumakas ang ulan. . .tapos . . .nagsiesta kami. . .pagkagicing eh. . .nagutom. . .kumain kami nina fem at lala. . .sa fc[family circle]yun . . .eh si jo kasi eh busog pa daw. . .nung pagbaba namin . . .palabas ng gate ng dorm. . .andun yung upperclassman na lagi kong nakakasalubong. . .as in lagi. . .every single day. . .hindi ko nga yun inexpect eh. . .yun. . .nakangiti siya nung nakita ko siya. . .ewan kung bakit. . .hindi niya kasama yung girlfriend niya. . .yun. . .pagkakain namin. . .naabutan kami ng ulan. . .buti hindi masyado malakas. . .tapos yun pagdating sa dorm . . .mga 5 yun. . .umalis sina jo saka si ruby . ..nag-grocery. . .tapos naglaro kaming cards. . .so bale. . .natuto akong mag-tong-its at pusoy dos. . . hehehe. . .tapos dumating sina jo mga 9. . .nagbabaraha pa din kami. . .hehehe. . .tapos yun. . .nagutom ata si jo. . .eh di kumain kami. . .yung una ako. . .yung tinapay yung dinadarang ko sa kandila. . .tapos sabay naisip nila yung marshmallow. . .tapos sabay naisip ni joan na magluto ng pancit canton gamit ang kandila. . .yun. . .naubusan nga kami ng kandila eh. . .so nanghingi kami. . .binigyan naman kami ni april. . .THANK YOU NGA PALA APRIL!!!tapos yun. . .kinaumagahan. . .nag-inartehan muna kami. . .taos nag baraha pa sila. . .ako tinry ko uling matulog. . .kasi ang sakit ng tiyan ko. . .tapos yun. . .hanggang nag-decide na kami na umuwi. . .kasi 2 weeks pa daw magkakatubug at kuryente. . .yeay!!!umalis kami 10:30. . .nung nadaanan namin yung labas ng dorm. . .yung palabas . . .papuntang bayan. . .grabeh!!!ang laks talaga nung bagyo!!!pati yung malaking puno sa admin na-uproot!!!grabeh talaga!!!tapos ang traffic sa pansol!!!sa calamba!!!at lao na sa magallanes. . .hanggang sa guadalupe!!!gawa nga nung bumagsak na billboard sa estrella. . .yun. . .wala kasing mrt nun. . .eh. . .hindi kami nagbreakfast. . .so un. . .bale yung meal ko sa bahay . . .breakfast, lunch at merienda na yun. . .starvation to death!!!nakarating ako sa bahay. . .hulaan mo. . .4:30. . .ganon katindi ang traffic. . .

hahaha!!! nahulog ako!!!

2006-09-27T01:32:00.000-07:00

so. . .
nagtraverse kami kanina. . .
yun yung tatawid sa pool na lubid lang. . .
walang harness yun!!!
eh tapos. . .
nahilog ako!!!
eh malakas ang ulan!!!
eh di basamg-basa ako!!!
hahaha!!!
nakakatuwa lang!!!
yun lang. . .
eh nakita pa naman ako ng crush ko nun. . .
basang basa. . .
buti na lang . . .
wala akong next class. . .
anyway. . .
yun byumalik ako sa dorm . . .
hindi na ko nagpayong. . .
yun na. . .
hahaha. . .
enjoy. . .
eh may nagswswimming pa naman. . .
tapos nahulog pa yung salamin ko. . .
nakakatuwa talaga. . .

text encounter

2006-09-24T03:37:00.000-07:00

ngayon ko lang na-realize. . .ang corny ko pala kausap sa text. . .actually matagal ko nang alam yun. . .ngayon ko lang talaga naisip. . .hahaha. . .lalo na pag hindi ko ka-close. . .kasi naman noh. . .eh ganito kasi yun. . .yung isa kong acquaintance. . .nagtext sakin. . .eh tapos. . .nagkwento siya. . .sabi niya galing daw siya ng bakery. . .bumili ng tinapay. . .tapos yun lang daw yung dinner niya. . .eh tapos tinanong ko siya. . .sabi ko. . .bakit yun lang ang dinner mo. . .sabi niya trip lang daw niya. . .tapos sabi ko . . .ah ok. . .tapos nagtext uli siya. . .sabi niya . . .bakit parng wala daw akong gana magtext ngayon. . .tapos tinanong ko kung bakit niya nasabi yun. . .sabi niya kasi daw ang ikli ng reply ko. . .eh ano naman gusto niyang ireply ko?!. . .na dapat eh rice ang dinner niya?!. . .the hell i care naman!!!tapos yun. . .sinabi ko na lang na wala akong masyadong masabi. . .siguro hindi lang talaga ako caring. . .saka wala naman talaga akong pakialam sa kanya. . .eh sa yn ang gusto niya eh. . .may magagawa ba ako. . .saka hindi ko naman siya friend. . .pero kasi yung iba kahit hindi friend eh caring pa rin. . .eh sa hindi talaga ako showy eh. . .magaling kaya akong magtago ng feelings ko. . .o kaya hindi talaga ako palakwento . . .kaya siguro kung mapapansin mo yung mga close friends ko ung mga. . .palakwento. . .outgoing. . .ma-PR. . .hindi katulad ko na. . .may pagkasnob. . .sobrang tahimik. . .yun. . .sa mga friends lang talaga ako nagiging madaldal. . .yung tipong pag friend na kita saka pa lang ako nagiging madaldal. . .makulit. . .eh pag yung bagong kilala hindi ko kaagad kinoconsider na friend. . .eh yung mga constant na nagtetext sakin . . .eh ganun lang din ang reply ko. . .halimbawa na lang. . . sila: oi musta? ako : ok lang aq. . .kaw? sila: ok kang din. . . ako : ahhh. . . sila: noh ginagawa mo? ako : e2 nakaupo. . .kaw? sila: ganon din . . . ako : ahh. . .siguro ang mga katext ko lang na hindi ganito na routinal ay sina. . .mikho, queng, jeffrey, arian, milca. . .minsan si encar at jerry. . .minsan eh yun iba sa mga blockmates. . .yun. . .eh kasi kina mikho. . .nagkukwento ako sa kanila. . .tapos nagkukuwento sila sakin. . .eh siyempre sila ilan sa mga closest friends ko. . .kina encar eh ganun din naman. . .pero sila yung nagkukuwento. . .ako. . .parang nakikinig lang. . .sa blockmates naman eh mga tanong lang. . .yung sa iba eh. . .kadalasan quotes. . .tapos yun. . .kamustahan. ..tapos mawawalan na ng mapag-uusapan. . .eh ganun ata talaga ang nature ko. . .pag hindi ko ka-close. . .hindi ko masyado. . .kinakausap.. .kahit naman sa personal. . .yung mga bagong acquaintance. . .lalo na pag hindi ko sila feel . . .hindi ko pinapansin kapag nakasalubong ko. . .or something. . .snobbish nga ata ako. . .siguro kaya walang may gusto sakin. . .hahaha. . .hindi kasi ako approachable eh. . .hindi din ako friendly. . .napansin ko lang kasi. . .yung kadalasang may boyfriend . . .eh yung mga friendly. . .kahit yung hindi masyadong kagandahan. . .hindi naman sa maganda ako. . .siguro kasi. . .hindi na nga ako kagandahan. . .tapos snob pa ko. ..eh pakialam ba nila. . .eh ganun na talaga ako eh. . .hehehe. . .saka hindi naman alo naghahanap. . .hindi din ako nagmamadali. . .nageenjoy pa ko noh!pero minsan . . .naisip ko din kung ano kaya ang feeling. . .ng may boyfriend. . .pero yun lang yun. . .darating din ang panahon. . .na may maglalakas loob. . .hahaha. . .yun lang. . .^ - ^

make poverty history!!! cofibean?!

2006-09-24T03:30:00.000-07:00

hmmm. . .may naisip lang uli ako.. .kasi eh di nung friday eh pauwi ako ng bulacan. . .kasama ko sina lala at lota. . .dumaan muna sila ng jollibee kasi nag-take-out sila. . .eh dun sa loob ng jollibee eh may batang nanlilimos. . .tapos may isang mama na nakaupo dun na parang may sakit sa balat. . .tapos may mama din na tumutugtog ng harmonica sa labas ng jollibee. . .siguro eh naghihintay din na may magbibigay. . .eto ang tunay na mundo. . .may mga naghihirap. . .nahihirapan. . .talamak ang kahirapan. . .nakaramdam ako ng panlulumo. . .naalala ko tuloy si cofibean. . .lagi siyang nandidiri sa mga indio. . . mga bobo orc. . .pero naisip ko lang. . .lahat tayo eh naawa. . .lahat tayo eh nakikisympatiya. . .pero may emphathy ba?kahit sa akin eh wala. . .hanggang awa lang ako. . .tayo. . .wala naman tayong ginagawa. . .gaya ni cofibean. . .oo nga't isa siyang gliterrati. . .pero sa pagiging elitista eh may nagawa na ba siya?. . .inaasa lang niya sa gobyerno. . .gobyernong wala ring pakialam. . .tagline pa naman niya ay. . .MAKE POVERTY HISTORY!!!parang si cofibean ay sumasalamin sa mga politikong walang pakialam. . .may empatiya lang kapag eleksyon o malapit na nag eleksyon. . .ang kaibahan lang eh si cofibean. . .wala talagang pakialam. . .sana matuto ako. . .tayo. . .na hindi lang maawa. . .na may gawin din tayo. . .tandaan natin na hindi sa gobyerno nakasalalay ang lahat. . .sa atin yun nakasalalay. . .instrumento lang yun. . .tandaan din sana natin na ang mga elitista at mataas sa lipunaN ay walang pakialam. . .hindi sa sinisiraan ko sila. . .inuulit ko lang ang ideya ni rizal. . .ayon kay rizal. . .hindi mag-aalsa ang mga mayayaman at mga ilustrados. . .dahil hindi naman sila naagrabyado. . .parang yung sa the lottery ni shirley jackson. . .kasi parang sinsabi dun na . . .okay lang ang violence. . .hangga't hindi tayo ang naapektuhan ng violence na ito . . .pero pag tayo na eh. . .dun na tayo nag-rereact. . .di ba tama naman?kumbaga eh hypocrisy. . .gaya ni mrs. hutchinson. . .okay lang sa kanya yung lottery . . .walang daya nung hindi pa siya nananalo. . .pero nung siya na yung nananalo. . .eh sabi niya may daya. . .yun lang. . .simple lang pero totoo diba?hindi ko sinasabi na hindi ako ganito. . .ako din naman eh. . .sinasabi ko lang. . .baka sakaling ma-realize nating lahat yun . . .at tayo ay mag-change for the better. . .basta ako ittry ko. . .wala namang masama di ba?

i'm so sorry that i'm falling help me out let's keep on running. . .

2006-09-24T03:22:00.000-07:00

--->run. . .running all the time. . .running to the future. . .if you're right by my side. . .me. . .i'm the one you trust. . .out of all the people. . .you wanted me the most. . .and i'm so sorry that i'm falling. . .help me up. . .let's keep on running. . .don't let me fall out of love. . .
--->running. . .running. . .as fast as we can. . .do you think we'll make it?. . .we're running . . .keep pulling my hand. . .as long as we don't . . .get separated. . .
--->be. . .be the one i need. . .be the one i trust most. . .thanks for inspiring me. . .sometimes its hard to keep on running. . .we work so much to keep it going. . .don't make me want to give up . . .
--->running. . .running. . .as fast as we can. . .i really hope we'll make it. . .we're running . . .keep pulling my hand. . .as long as we don't . . .get separated. . .

...i really like this song. . .i don't really know why. . .maybe it the lyrics . . .or maybe it's the song itself. . .i really don't know. . .i just like it. . .
[when i hear this song. . .i feel like there's someone who cares for me. . .the one i need. . .the one i trust most. . .the one that inspires me. . .the one pulling my hand as we run. . .the one who trusted me. . .out of all the people. . .the one who will help me up when i fall . . .then we'll keep on running. . .]
{one BEING comes to my mind. . .GOD. . .okay,so i'm not that religious. . .but i believe that there's a GOD. . .a GOD that runs with me. . .ALL THE TIME. . .just as long that we don't get separated. . .i know and i believe. . .that though we work somuch on running. . .HE'S the one that makes me NOT GIVE UP. . .that HE"S just there. . .just so i seek HIS help. . .i know HE is there. . .}
(in terms of the material being. . .i don't think i've found him. . .maybe he's just there. . .i just don't realize that he is that person. . .but i think. . .GOD will give that person to me. . .at the right time. . .i'm not really looking for him. . . :) )
i'm happy with my life . . .though there maybe complications. . .i try to look at it at the good side. . .i know its for my best. . .but just to be honest. . .i'm still looking for something. . .something that i don't know. . .maybe as i always say. . .it's me. . maybe college will help me find me. . .i don't know. . .i believe that i'll find "me" at the right time. . .
i know you're tired of senteces hoping to find me. . .and why is it so important to me to find me. . .it's just that. . .i believe that when i find myself. . .like learn my talents, strenghts, weaknesses, attitudes. . .i'll learn how to utilize. . .improve. . .change for the better. . .so that eventually . . .i can love myself. . .when i love myself. . .i'll learn how to love others. . .share what i've learned. . .share what i have. . .help them . . .isn't that great?. . .i just believe that you cannot share what you don't have. . .that's why i'm really trying to find my true self. . .i think . . .little by little. . .i will find me. . .i know it's a lifetime process. . .but now that i'm starting to find and collect bits of me. . .i know better know. . .i've learned to love myself better than before. . .and i'm learning and loving others. . .:)

they talk the talk but can't walk the walk

2006-09-21T21:26:00.000-07:00

i watched the recently concluded uaap cheerdance . . .
just this hour. . .
hmmm. . .
okay lang naman. . .
there's one thing that i've noticed. . .
the participating schools are bantering .
nagtataka lang ako. . .
kasi yung mga school na sinasabing "prestigious"
eh parang inaapakan ang UP?
no offense meant. . .
pero karamihan ng nagcomment ng masama tungkol sa UP
eh either taga-UST, ATENEO at iba pang schools. . .
dinedegrade nila ang UP na kesyo public daw o ano. . .
kung ano anong panlalait sa UP. . .
na puro rally lang daw ang alam. . .
puro quiz bee. . .
hmmm. . .
bakit ganon?!
nilalait nila ang UP na ganon. . .
eh hindi ba nila naisip na ang hirap na nga ng mga subjects sa UP eh nakakakuha pa ng extracurricular activities ang mga UPians. . .
isipin mo na lang diba?
saka bakit ganon sila magsalita?
sinsabi nilang walang breeding ang mga UPians pero kung mgacomment sila ay parang hindi "catholic", "private" ang school nila. . .
kasi hindi sila nakapasa ng UP?
if i know lahat ng nag-comment dun eh nagtake ng UPCAT. . .
no offense meant . . .
pero di ba inasam nila na pumasa at makapag-aral dun. . .
tapos lalaitin nila?
hindi ko sinasabi to dahil UPian din ako. . .
napansin ko lang. . .
saka hindi ba dapat hindi sila mag-umpisa ng ganon thread?
yun lang. . .
kasi sa palagay ko isa yan sa mga dahilan ng hindi pag-unlad ng bansa. . .
dinidiscriminate natin ang isa't isa. . .
simpleng cheering eh inag-aawayan. . .
hindi naman nasususkat ang kakayahan ng tao sa school na pinangalingan niya. . .
depende pa din yun sa kanya. . .
hindi ibig sabihin nun na hindi ko nadidiscriminate ang ibang school. . .
pero ganon talaga ang nature ng tao. . .
pero dapat ay iwasan natin yun. . .
sabi nga ni gabriel garcia marquez. . .
"we should rethink our values in order to help other people"
ayan. . .
naisip ko lang kasi. . .

i din't think it was. . . but it is. . .

2006-09-17T03:02:00.000-07:00

the guys at unit four, the dorm unit in front of ours are annoying at the same time funny. . .
annoying because at 12 am they're still singing their hearts out. . .
accompanied by their guitar. . .
funny because at same point . . .
around 12:45 . . .
they dsang LUPANG HINIRANG. . .
our national anthem. . .

i thought they're already signing off. . .
like what they do in tv. . .
but to no avail. . .
they still continued their singing. . .

well, their singing is like my life. . .
annoying at the same time funny. . .
annoying because i'm annoyed at myself. . .
in the sense that i doin't really know . . .
who i am. . .
what i am. . .
where my talents lie. . .
i'm crawling in the darki. . .
trying to find myself. . .
sometimes i'm annoyed at the people around me. . .
annoyed because they're secure of theirselves. . .
they know who they are. . .
their strenghts. . .
thier weaknesses. . .
they have their talents. . .
they know their goals. . .
i guess my one true goal is to. . .
find me. . .
because i believe that before i can know or appreciate anyone. . .
i have to know me. . .
i think my life is funny because
here i am trying to figure myself out. . .
then others would take it for granted. . .
others have talents. . .
others that have direction in life. . .
its funny also because. . .
though im struggling. . .
to find me. . .
i find the courage to laugh. . .
have fun. . .
also because of the people around me. . .

hahaha. . .
you know what. . .
every night i pray. . .
that GOD will guide me. . .
enlighten me. . .
to lead me to the right path. . .
top help me know my talents. . .
strengths. . .
weaknesses. . .
to improve myself. . .
to ba a better me. . .
to know me. . .
i guess i'll know me. . .
eventually . . .
in HIS own. . .
TIME. . .

hahaha mula sa mga taong kumakanta sa UNIT4 napunta tayo sa seryoso. . .
hehehe. . .
^-^

busy weeek busy me. . .

2006-09-14T02:34:00.000-07:00

another busy week ahead. . .
bio lect long exam. . .
open inquiry proposal. . .
experimental design proposal. . .
sci paper. . .
i'm doomed. . .
i hope i'll pass chem lect le tihis friday. . .
keeping my fingers crossed. . .
i think i'll be more busy in the coming weeks. . .
the semester is approaching its end. . .
hope i get satisfying grades. . .
haaay. . .
i'm speechless. . .

fairy tales and everything you want to read to your child. . .

2006-09-13T01:40:00.000-07:00

hmmmm. . ..
i just realized how scientific the world is. . .
just think of it. . .
the more advanced the technology is,
the more knowledge about world processes man knows,
the less imaginative he gets. . .
come to think of it. . .
the first philosophers thought that the world is made of this and that. . .
made of elemnets, etc. . .
but now that we know what it is reallly made of. . .
hindi na tayo nakakagawa ng sariling nating interpretasyon ng mundo. . .
gaya nga ng sabi ng isang manunulat. . .
habang ang bata ay namumulat sa siyensya. . .
nababwasan ang kanyang imahinasyon. . .
hindi na siya nagiging creative. . .
mas nakikita niya ang scientific view. . .
na dapat ay may proseso. . .
dapat ay nagcoconform sa facts. . .
lahat ay based sa facts. . .
sa tingin ko ganon din sa atin ngayon,
nababwasan na tayo ng imahinasyon. . .
hindi ko sinasabi na masama ang siyensiya dahil ukol sa
siyensiya ang aking kurso. . .
ang sinasabi ko lamang ay sana wag nating laging pairalin ang isipang puno ng siyensiya na nakabase sa mga facts kundi pairalin din natin ang ating imahinasyon. . .
yun lang. . .

ang aking lunes. . .

2006-09-11T02:46:00.000-07:00

so yun nga. . .
nagising ako. . .
thank GOD at nagising ako. . .
muntik na naman akong malate. . .
so yun. . .
dun sa hum1 namain nagmeeting kami tungkol nga dun sa creative output. . .
gagawa ata kami nung mini-film. . .
i'm not so sure. . .
so yun. . .
magrereport na dapat kami sa wednesday. . .
magpapaconsult sana kami kay sir cabatic . . .
mga bandang 11 am yun. . .
energy wasted. . .
halos half hour namin hinahanap yung room niya. . .
hindi namin makita. . .
kahit anino man lang niya. . .
well, fault din namin yun kasi. . .
di kami nagtanong. . .
ganon talaga. . .
nasuyod an namin yung buong hum at ncas. . .
la pa rin. ..
bahala na sa wednesday. . .
good luck to me. . .
my group . . .
and me. . .
:)

oo nga pala

2006-09-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

just this morning i realized the blog that in read yesterday. . .
i just realized that he wants to be a famous edito-in-chief of a famous newspaper. . .
or. . .
a famous director that his film will be given the best foreign fillm in the oscars. . .
i just thought that if he wants to attain this kind of goals,
he has to have some kind of experience. . .
then what the hell is his problem with trekking?!
duh!!!
doesn't he realize that directors, journalist need wide experience in order to make a good article or a great movie!!!!
if you did not experience things first hand,
how can you write or make a movie about it!!!
doesn't he realize that life is a risk itself!!!
i think the reason ehy he doesn't like elbi
is because he's very unadventurous and afraid to try new things. . .
or even dirty his fingers. . .
again, as i said, this is just my opinion. . .

meron na naman isang kumagat sa alikabok. . .

2006-09-10T04:11:00.000-07:00

haaay naku. . .
naiinis ako ngayon. . .
may nabasa kasi akong blog. . .
taga elbi din siya. . .
andami niyang reklamo. . .
kesyo mas maganda ang ambiance ng qc. .
nakakaasar lang. . .
kasi naman. . .
eh di dun na lang siya. . .
not that i'm affected or anything. . .
but nakakainis lang. . .
what do you think of the world?!
served on a silver platter?!
what the hell!
okay. . .
ako rin . . .
napapagaod din ako sa buhay dito sa elbi. . .
pero itry to enjoy it!
you know why?!
because i believe that everything should me made with sweat and blood!!!
lahat kaya pinaghihirapan!!!
buti pa yung isa kong blockmate!!!
kahit babagsakin, nagttry pa rin siya!!!
alam ko mareklamo rin ako!!!
pero try kong hindi na. . .
dahil hindi naman laging spoonfeed na lang. . .
saka i've always been independent. . .
basta nakakainis lang siya!!!
sana ma-realize niya yun!!!
yun lang!!!
anyway, wala na rin naman siyan pakialam sa akin. . .
sa blog ko at kung ano pa man. . .
kasi opinyon ko lang ito. . .
yun lang. . .

p.s. sobrang hirap ng 2nd departmental long exam ng chem lab!!!
p.p.s kailangan pa lang mag-present sa hum1. . . sana props ako!!!

hmmmm. . .

2006-09-01T03:39:00.000-07:00

i just realized something. . .
just this moment. . .
i realized how i love music. . .
and art. . .
but somehow. . .
all are just ideas in my head. . .
it just never gets materialize. . .
for some reason. . .
reason that i can't figure out. . .
i love music in a way that i can't live without it. . .
a day never passes without me listening. . .
i love art. . .
i always have this ideas for my room. . .
my bed. . .
my closet. . .
for everything. . .
but i guess. . .
i just don't have the courage to express me. . .
i'm a fraid of criticism .. .
i may be open minded. . .
but i fear that i may just end up a bum . . .
hmmm. . .
i guess that's one thing. . .
one thing that i can help. . .
but i did nothing. . .
i love this two things. . .
but i can't do anything to pursue them . .
to let them love me . . .
. . .
i don't know. . .
maybe i'm just plain stupid. . .
dumbass. . .

homaygad!!!!

2006-09-01T03:01:00.000-07:00

andito na naman ako. . .
haaay. . .
pagdating ko kanina sa dorm,
wala na namang kuryente.. .
nakakainis na. . .
ganito ba talga?!
GODDAMNIT NAMAN!!!
pagdating ni ruby kanina. .
sabi niya mahirap daw ang long exam nila sa chem lect. . .
eh kung hinirapan ni sir micor ang exam,
eh di super duper hirap ng kay sabu
kasi hindi daw masyadong mahirap magbigay si micor eh. . .
so pano na ako?!
haay. . .
tapos may chem lab pa next week . . .
tapos may sci paper pa kong ipapasa. .
hay buhay talaga. . .
parang life. . .
nakakaasar!!!
thanks to technology. . .
natetext ko sina mikho, queng, jeffrey, milca. . .
at iba pang friends na katext ko . . .
haaay. . .
saka natatawagan pa ako ni mother. . .
kung hindi mababaliw siguro ako. . .
WAAAAAHHH!!!!!

s

2006-08-31T21:13:00.000-07:00

hay naku!!!
bad day talaga kahapon!!!
nagtest kami sa philo!!!
tapos ang instruction pala ay give an example!!!
iasng sentence lang pala ang kailangan!!!
inexplain ko!!!
ginawa kong essay!!!
nakakaasar talaga!!!
ARGH!!!
tapos sa math, mali mali yung ginawa ko!!!
hindi pa ata ako nakapasa sa isang quiz!!!
haaay. . .
sa sususnod,
gagawin ko na talaga yung try items ma binbigay ni sir!!!
at ang talagang masaklap ay yung chem lect ko!!!
hulaan niyo score ko!!!
59/100
eh 60 kaya ang passing!!!
nakakasar na talaga!!!
laging sablay ang grade ko!!!
pero okay lang din kasi nakauno ako pe. . .
pe nga lang yun. . .
pero ayos pa rin . .
kasi pasado ako sa bio lab. . .
hehehe. . .
nakita ko yung crush kong si franc na nagsasampay ng damit niya. . .
hahaha ^-^
nakakatawa nga kasi hindi niya mafigureout pano niya isasampay ang damit niya!!!
hahaha!!!
la lang. . .
nakakaasar na medyo nakakatuwa tong week na 'to!!!
yun lang. . .

SANA. . .

2006-08-28T19:26:00.000-07:00

Naiinis na ako!!!
Hindi na nakakatuwa!!!
akala niya kasi. . .
ganon na lang yon. . .
agad. . .
sawang sawa na ako. . .
lagi na lang ako ang nagbibigay. . .
lagi na lang ako ang nagpapakumbaba. . .
puno na ang salop!!!
akala ba niya excuse yun!!!
hondi noh!!!
nasabi na niya eh!!!
hindi na yon mababawai!!!
di bale nang saktan ako. . .
physically. . .
wag lang
verbally. . .
simula dati pa. . .
nung bata pa ako. . .
ganon na siya
mayabang. . .
kahit siya ang mali . . .
ako, kami ang nagsosorry . . .
Mapride.
lagi siya ang tama
matalino
lahat ng magandang ugali nasa kanya
"DAW"
sawang sawa na ako
madami na siyang nasabing hindi ko na ma-take
sumosobra na siya
akala niya kung sino siyang magaling
HINDI NAMAN!!!
kung magaling siya,
maiintindihan niya ang sim[pleng bagay na sinabi ko
at hindi niya mamimisinterpret
yung iba bata masaya pag dumating ang mga tulad niya
AKO HINDI!!!
kahit dati PA!!!
kahit nung bata pa kami. . .
wala akong natandaan na tuwang tuwa akong anjan siya. . .
i dreaded the days he's there
because i know. . .
misery's always with him. . .
AYOKO TALAGA SA KNAYA!!!
sa ugali niya
kahit alam kong. . .
baligtarin man ang mundo,
yun pa rin ang papel niya sa buhay ko. . .
kung makakapili lang ako eh. . .
akala ng marami masaya ang buhay ko. . .
perpekto. . .
walanh problema. . .
wala nang hahahnapin pa. . .
i guess yun lang ang facade ko. . .
hindi nila alam malaki ang problema
SIYA
ewan ko ba
kung bakit dati kaya ko pang pagtiyagaan. . .
ngayon AYOKO NA!!!
nawalan na ako ng AMOR!!!
BAHALA SIYA!!!
naawa nga ako kay mama eh. . .
at the same time humahanga
kasi napagtiyagaan ang tulad niya!!!
siguro may rason bakit natiis niya!!!
AKO HINDI NA!!!
pinagdadasal ko tuwing gabi
na sana maliwanagan ang isip niya!!!
Peo hindi umeepekto. . .
Lalong LUMALALA!!!
tingin ko. . .
kasi walang kumakalaban sa kanya!!!
LAGING SIYA. . .
Para siyang bata!!!
hindi marunong umintindi!!!
gusto lagi siya!!!
Siya ang matandang walang pinagkatandaan!!!
Siguro hindi niya ineexpect na ganon ako!!!
pero ganon talaga. . .
kailangan may mag- STAND UP!!!
sa kanya
para magbago. . .
Para malaman niya na hindi lagi siya. . .
Hindi kasi open minded
masyadong makitid ang utak . . .
kahit pa sabihin na okay siya. . .
dahil napprovide niya kami sa material things. . .
kahit pa hindi niya kami sinasaktan physically . . .
pero ang tabas ng dila niya ang sama!!!
words are more hurtful that whip!!!
masakit talga siyang magsalita!!!
kahit pa sabihin niyang hindi niya sinasadya. . .
will you say words you didn't mean?!
katwiran niyang baluktot!!!
sana maliwanagan ang utak niya. . .
sana i-enlighten siya ng Holy Spirit. . .
Sana makita niya ang DIYOS. . .
sana lang. . .
sana nga. . .
SANA. . .

now i realized. . .

2006-08-27T20:20:00.000-07:00

now i realized that different words mean different things for different people. . .
ngayon ko lang napatunayan yun. . .
what you mean as a joke may not mean a joke for every people you meet. . .
now i realize. . .
that i should always watch my words. . .
before i make a joke is should make sure. . .
everyone in the room knows what i'm talking about. . .
maybe i should shut my mouth. . .
but i don't talk that often. . .
maybe i should just to myself. . .
me. myself and i. . .
sige hindi na talaga ako magsasalita. . .
madami lang hindi magandang nangyayari. . .
maybe i'm just always misunderstood. . .
maybe i come off as weird. . .
but that's just how i am. . .
i can't help myself. . .
but if it's ruining my relationship with others. . .
i might as well shut my mouth for good. . .
ganon ba talaga yun?!
pag hindi naintindihan ng kausap mo. . .
yung sinabi mo. . .
ikaw pa ang mali?!
hindi yata. . .
wala naman siya sa katwiran eh. . .
kasalanan niya. . .
mababaw utak niya eh. . .
sana mapag-isipan niya yung mali niya. . .
wala naman akong sinabing masama. . .
mali lang ang pag-intindi niya. . .
tapos ako pa ang mali. . .
eh siya nga eh. . .
kung ano ano ang pinagsasabi niya. . .
tanga ba siya?!
nakakabadtrip na kasi eh!!!
lagi na lang siya ang tama. . .
kahit mali siya!!!
hindi naman siya makatwiran. . .
wala naman siya sa lugar!!!
nakakaasar talaga!!!
haaay. . .
bahala na nga siya. . .
i changed my mind. . .
i'll not change. . .
just because of one person . . .
who has so narrow a mind. . .
bahala na siya. . .

hmmm....

2006-08-27T20:17:00.000-07:00

i need to get my checklist today. . .
isang checklist para sa mga kukunin mong subject. . .
next semester. . .
isang hakbang na naman. . .
ang tatahakin ko. . .
para makatapos ako. . .
pero hindi ko pa din alam ang purpose nun. . .
sana malapit ko nang malaman yun,. .
sana lang naman. . .

hanggang ngayon....

2006-08-17T20:05:00.000-07:00

up till now...
im still a scavenger...
naliligaw pa rin ako...
feeling ko ako lang ang naiiba dito...
dito...
sa UP...
feeling ko ako lang ang...
1. hindi magaling
2. walang kaalam alam
3. tamad
4. walang katalent talnet
5. walang goal
hay naku...
wala talaga akong kakwenta kwenta...
haay kawawa naman ako...
haay wala na kong magagawa....

haaaay....

2006-08-17T19:55:00.000-07:00

what a week!!!
may long exam ako sa chem kanina!!!
napakahirap!!!
hindi ko man lang natapos!!!
tinry ko na lang na magkaroon ng solution para may partial points!!!
grabeh talaga!!!
bakit nga ba ako ng biology?!
walang hiya naman!!!
kung alam ko lang na ganito!!!
pag kaya ng legal management ako o pshychology sa uste mas maganda?!
pero sana iba na lang pinili kong course dito...
pero makakapasa kaya ako sa course na yon?!
kung yun ang pinili ko?!
pero ayos lang kaya dito...
madaming naeexperience...
tatlo na ang napanood kong play...
icebag6. . .
subtext. . .
romeo rocks juliet. . .
tapos nakapanood na din ako ng poem reading...
indie films..
na gawa ng kapwa ko upian...
okay na din...
may kanya kanyang ups and downs...
pero first time kong mag-exam ng nilalagnat...
kanina yun...
hindi pa ako nakapagaral....
haaay sana makapasa dun...
sa chem lab nga eh...
59.5 ako...
ang passing ay 60...
sabi nga nila...
kamusta naman yun?!
haaay...

i can't understand why....

2006-07-31T18:57:00.000-07:00

why di i get the feewling that somebody hates me??? i don't know but if you ask me i really don't remember doing anything ridiculous, nasty, asshole-ish to anyone especially here at lb.... i don't know but i think they hate me coz they ain't me?! haha!!! do i sound bitchy?! well... what can i say... (sometimes you need to write and sound like a bitch to lift your self esteem) but it's the truth right?! the only reason people will hate you is because they;re envious... but im not sure if i'm the one they're bitching but i think im the one because why tell something ridiculous just as i am passing by if im not the one they're talking about.... maybe i'm just egotistical... what do you think.....

*these are her exact words: "ano ba yan nakaka-turn-off naman s'ya!" right in my face... i think it just came out of her mouth because i don't think they're talking about something about turn-offs....*

but as i said maybe i'm just egotistical....

what do you think?!?

am i bitchy?

or whory?

i don't think so. . .

i just do what i do...

just don't hate me coz they ain't me...

wahaha!!!

here i go again...

im hot they're not so i hope they just deal with it...

wahaha!!!!

uhmmm..... i've been thinking about something lately...

2006-07-31T04:36:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking about lately what purpose do i serve this world.... i met someone last last week and his words to me made me step back and think about the things that i've done in my life... i realized that i'm really really really lucky to study and be a;live but i think that i should strive for me to attain hapiness... do i sound like buddha?! i don't thgink so... but i think i'm just out to find the better part of me?! wahahaha!!!! so now im singing... i think the reason why im here at los banos is for me to find myself, to reach my full potential?! now i'm using taglines!!!! what the hell's wrong with me..... i think im just tired...

waaaah.... weight going down the drain

2006-06-29T19:39:00.000-07:00

i feel very blessed that im studying at the university of the philippines los banos but i think my health is at stake.... well one of the perks is that i get plenty of exercise but then im skipping meals, i suffer from lack of sleep(most of which is my fault) but my the end of the day i feel so dead tired that i want to quit but then... all things earned by hardwork are the greatest things you can achieve.... well, just pray for me... hope that by the end of this semester i get at least a grade of 3.0.... sigh.....

oh high school life

2006-06-08T22:42:00.001-07:00

Haaay...sarap alalahanin ang high school... habang pinapakinggan ko ang kantang "Para sa mga Masa" ng Eraserheads, hindi ko mapigilan kundi alalahanin ang mga alaala ng highschool. masaya, kapanapanabik, lahat na ng klase ng emosyon mararamdaman mo nung highschool. dun mo unanag makikita yung crush mo, sun ka maiinlove kung meron man, dun ka mapapagalitan ng mga teachers basta lahat, sabi nga ni mama sa hihgschool mo halos makikita ang mga tunay mong kaibigan dahil sila yung tumanggap sa 'yo nung wala ka pang malaking allowance, kotse, noong di ka pa matunong pumorma, basta sila yung tumanggap sa'yo ng buong buo na ikaw lang talaga. kaya naman gusto ko sanang magpasalamat sa lahat ng aking mga kaibigan sa high school simula nung first year hanggang nung fourth year. alam ko yung iba di ko na masyado nakakausap pero alam niyo naman na kapag kailangan niyo ako nandito lang ako lagi para tumulong o kahit para san pa... basta wag lang kayong mahihiya... may mga magkakaibigang bang nagkakahiyaan? ... at dahil next next week sa june 20 official na na college student na ako gusto ko lang sulat yung analyzation ko sa kantang "Para sa mga Masa" kasi parang bawat linya may sinasabi tungkol sa high school life. "ito ay para sa mga masa, sa lahat ng nawalan ng pag-asa sa lahat ng aming nakasama, sa lahat ng hirap at pagdurusa naaalalaniyo pa ba?"
itong linyang ito tingin ko ay para ito sa mga estudyanteng nawalan ng pag-asa dahil bumagsak, may problema sa pamilya, buhay lovelife,kulang sa pantuition, walang baon, yung mga naging struggles sa buhay. sa lahat ng naging bahagi nung mga pagdurusang naranasan natin noong mga panahon na iyon. naaalala pa ba nating lahat ng ito?
"binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya" tingin ko masasabi mo yung linya 'to dun sa mga kaibigan mo nung highschool na may problema tapos napasaya mo dun sa mga classmates mo na nahihirapan sa mga subjects tapos tinulungan mong makapasa, dun sa classmate mong may nililigawan sa kabilang section tapos tinulungan mong mapasagot yun... siguro kung iisipin natin mababaw lang pala yung mga kasiyahan natin nung highschool pero hindi ba sobrang natuwa naman tayo nung nanagyari yung mga bagay na ito?
"ilang taon na rin ang lumipas,mga kulay ng mundo ay kumupas marami na rin ang mga pagbabago, di maiiwasan 'pagkat tayo ay tao lamang"
sa linyang ito naaalala ko yung mga kaibigan ko na although kaibigan ko pa rin hanggang ngayon medyo di na masyado nakakapag-usap dahil sa sobrang busy, o kaya yung mga dating kilala na magkaawy sa school ngayon best friends na o kay naman yung dating bumabagsak yung grades ngayong honors, o kaya naman yung school nag-iimprove yung mga pagbabagong naganap. siguro pag nagalumni homecoming masasabi rin namin ito dun sa mga hindi namin inakal ana magiging ganito o ganito yung mga tipong ganun...
"mapapatawad mo ba ako, kung hindi ko sinunod ang gusto mo?"
siguro itong part na 'to para dun sa mga pagsuway natin sa ating mga magulang, teachers, administrators o kaya kahit dun sa mga ate at kuya o kaya kahit sa mga batchmates, classmates at schoolmates, yung mga times na pinipilit pa rin natin yung mga gusto natin kaysa sumunod. sana mapatwad na nila tayo if ever na may pagkakasala tayong ginawa towards them.
"pinilt kong iahon ka, ngunit ayaw mo namang sumama"
ito para ito dun sa mga magulang, teachers, classmates, batchmates, friends na sinasabihan tayo na magbago na para sa ikabubuti pero ano, hindi tayo nakinig. ito yung para samga taong nag-offer na tulungan tayo at dahil sa pride or talagang stubborn lang tayo titurndown natin yung offer. puwede din ito dun sa inofferan nating tulunagn sila ngunit ayaw namn nilang sumama.
"ito ay para sa mga masa, sa lahat ng binaon ng sistema"
ito para dun sa mga estudyanteng may angking talino na hindi naman masyadong napansin dahil siguro na-overshadow nung mga mas "popular" na estudyante o nung mga "mas maganda" o kaya naman ay nahihiya sila kaya di sila masyado napansin. o kaya naman sila yung mga may natulungan na hindi man lang nagawang pasalamatan. ito din yung mga "loner" na laging gusto na sila ay mag-isa at ang pinakaworst ay kung ikaw yung "loser" na sa highschool hindi na talaga nabibigyan ng chance kahit anong gawin nila. milagro na lang talaga.
"sa lahat nga aming nakabarkada, sa lahat ng mahilig sa love song at drama"
ito yung para sa mga taong na-meet ko "along the way". sa lahat ng mga kaibigab, mga naging classmates, mga batchmates, mga teachers, mga ate at kuya, mga sisters, LAHAT!!! sa mga nakasama, nakakwentuhan, nakaiyakan at sa lahat ng mga experiences i've shared with each and everyone, the whole carmelian community. sa lahat ng naging part ng high school life ko.
"sa lahat ng di marunong bumasa, sa lahat ng may problema sa eskwela"
para sa mga nahihirapan intindihin yung mga lessons, para sa mga tamad mag-aral, sa mga di-nagpapasa ng projects, yung mga laging pinapapunta kay sir levy, t.rose, sir francis o sa guidance, mga makukulit sa klase. sana dun sa mga huminig ng tilong sa akin sa school work sana natulungan ko kayo kung hindi naman sorry, siguro may magandang dahilan bakit hindi ko kayo natulungan.
"sa lahat ng fans ni ssharon cuneta"
para sa mga sikat sa school, yung mga laging nagbibigay honor sa school, mga school performers, top achievers, varsity, math-science-english whiz, mga nasa top spot ng popularity chain, thank you kasi naging proud ako na mag-aral sa school na 'to dahil sa mga honors na naibigay niyo. pero sana "give chance to others kasi nga baka may mas magaling pa hindi nga lang gaanong napapansin.
"sa lahat ng may problema sa pera"

oooH!!!! big dilemma!!!

2006-06-08T22:42:00.000-07:00

i've been dealing with this problem practically since birth. i could say that i felt its symptoms earlier in life but i guess it came mini-version. now that i have grown older, it manifested itself in whoppers and i wonder when can i get my old skin back. my problem that i've been carrying with me up until now and i guess until i die is skin asthma. i know some people will say that ahh... its just skin asthma you thank God that it is not lung asthma, but believe me, its just as painful. i started feeling its wrath since i don't know, maybe when i was a kid. back then, i didn't mind it that mush because after a while it will be gone. but as i got older it became more severe. i guess its because as you grow older you are subjected to more stress(which is one of the primary causes of the itchiness) unlike when you are still a child. Well it started in my first year in high school that it got severe. then every year it gets worse. this summer was the itchiest year for me. since its hot, your skin will naturally itch because of humidity then combined with the stress factor and you will feel the climax of all the itchiness in the world. that's how itchy it can be. so i will ease the itch by guess what? scratching it. yeah so my skin especially neck is so red that one more scratch and it can create a wound. that's how painful it can be. its not just the neck that is attacked it can be the hinge of your arms or legs, below your bustline and that can be very irritating especailly if you itch everywhere. luckily for me i only felt it on my neck. but those parts will eventually feel dry and scaly and whan you soap that part sometimes, it will sting and the worst part it isn't the prettiest thing to look at. believe me.up until this moment that i write this entry, i can still feel the itch. but i try to find ways to ease the dry, itchy skin. when it is nauseatingly hot i put some ice cubes or a damp face towel on my neck and the itch will subside after a while. sometimes i put some kwan loong(it is a ointment or something with menthol) so that i will resist the urge to itch. after taking a bath, i slather some lotion on the affected part so that it will not dry out and form scales. well that's just some of my coping measure, sometimes you've got to experiment especially ehen you're not inside your house. but when desperate times calls for desperate measures... itch away!!!having this severe skin asthma has changed my life in 36o degrees but not in a really good way. actually, i became more impatient especially on excruciatingly hot days. but i also learned that it taught me something : TO KEEP MY COOL i've always been a moody person but then after experiencing the wrath of my skin asthma i realized that keeping my cool will actually help me, because if i kept my cool the itch will be in lesser intensity unlike when i resort to my usual routine to gat mad and shout. it actually made me into a better person. i think and i hope so.as i try to close this entry, i realized that having a skin asthma is not bad after all. it tests your patience and perseverance to find a solution. i just hope that somebody will also realize what i have realized with skin asthma.im just wondering, when can i have the un-reddish skin in my neck back? hahaha!!!

newspaper articool!!!

2006-06-08T22:41:00.000-07:00

i read this certain article in a newspaper (The Philippine Star) written by i have forgotten who(i think it's scott garceau or somethng like that) that manages to make me laugh even though i've read it many times. It is about the Top Ten Nasty Habits Filipinos Have. I keep it in my wallet in cas i need a good laugh. im publishing it in my blog so that i can share it with you. i hope you like it. ENJOY!!!
TOP TEN NASTY HABITS FILIPINOS HAVE1. Picking Teeth in Public a matchstick, atwig, even a grimy fingernail will do. a certain dreamy idleness accompanies the tooth picker: usually he's gazing out at the street or leaning against a convenient pole or storefront. his behavior is in stark contrast to filipinos in restaurant who make quite a show of hiding the toothpick from view with a cupped hand, as if to announce: There's something very privete and top secret going on behind this hand, something you can only guess at by my furtive picking motions.2. Carrying Coins in Ears this particular habit belongs to a subcategory called "Nasty Things that Cab Drivers Do" You see them sitting at red lights(when they bother to stop for red lights), leaning back and tuning in to the strange frequencies which resonate only within their ear canals. are the coins stuck there to block traffic noise? are they stored in ears to purchase thing from street vendors? do they contain coded messages to other cab drivers? nobody knows for certain. perhaps they're a makeshift holder for cabbies who need to clip beard grizzle in a hurry.3. Spitting out cab doors. the other Nasty Things that Cab Drivers Do. Nothing warms the old gag reflex quite like the sight of a cab driver opening his door and expectorating onto the street- two cars away from you! Perhaps the government should consider handing out spit cups to all licensed cab drivers of manila. it would relly cut down on the gross factor. better yet, institute canning, as singapore once did.4. Wearing shirtfront up, exposing belly True, you're not going to win any etiquette awards if you walk around in public with your overripe belly exposed like a full wine gourd. it's easy to snicker at these guys who seem to lack Shame Gene handed out in the garden of eden. but guess what? in a tropical country such as this, most people confess to me that it "just feels good" to epose belly in the air. so maybe it's a trend.5. Carrying rags in Mouth This one i could never quite figure out. You say you want to carry a rag? the thing that previously wiping all kinds of grit, spit, nasal spew, and balut juice? in your mouth? the best reasoning i can come up with is that the rag-in-a mouth look frees up hands for other important activities. again, maybe it's a sign of filipino ingenuity.6. Hacking/coughing in public my wife complains to me about the guy on the tesdmill next to her gym, hacking his brains out for 25 minutes. the sounds are digusting enough to cut through her headphones. we think someone should tell this guy that maybe running isn't so great for his health. or that coughing up vital organs in public isn't just polite.7. Pointing with one's lips as mother always told us: it's impolite to point in filipino society except with one's lips. somehow the sight of a pair of pursed lips arched in a particular direction doesn't qualify as a universal sign language. or perhaps it's a matter of energy conservation. maybe the lip pointing (like the rag carrying ) frees up the hands for more pressing activities.8. Using kissing sounds to call someone/going "pssst!" a peculiar pinoy invention, these two methods of attracting someone's attention have one benefit: they make you want to march right over to the sound effects guy and bash upside the head with awet flounder.9. The long pinky fingernail this one has a bit of an urban myth quality about it, though many claim that the late Ferdinand Marcos possesed the one long, manicured pinky nail. you see it in a polite society as well, where you are forced to speculate on its uses. is is a cult-like affectation? something Masonic perhaps? or is it simply kept long and pointy to better dislodge the stubborn and encrusted nose boulders10.Blowing the nose with one nostril speaking of nose boulders, this one ends the list with a distinct sound as well as an image. the practitioner of this habit, usually carried out in full view of witnesses, simply presses his index fingers to the side of one nostril passage, turns his face red in concentration and gives birth to two things: an unwanted projectile and a triumphant sound (his unblocked nostril fibrillating in joy) which goes something like "Hphmpt!"P.S. i know i left out "urinating on public walls but its been done before"

DREAM BIG!!!

2006-06-08T22:39:00.000-07:00

Dream Big!!! It costs nothing!Everytime I am discouraged to pursue what i have dreamed of, one name comes into my mind, Howard Hughes.Thanks to the actor Leonardo diCaprio and the director Martin Scorsesse for bringing back to life the billionaire, aviation pioneer, daredevil and dreamer Howard Hugheds through the meguc of film making.Although I was not yet born when Howard Hughes died in 1976 in the most tragic circumstance, the life of this man has always fascnated me, since i saw the movie, "The Aviator". I admire him as a passionate man for his craft, as a dreamer and as a conqueror of risks.He was one of the most complicated man of the last century. There are many books on his biography by different authors but no one seem to define him, categorize him.He was successful. He is the first American billionaire who had all the things a man will ever want but somehow he was unable to fingd a sense of peace or happiness. while he's having all the success in the world, he was having a hard time dealing with himself as he is an obssesive compulsive, hypochondriac, and germaphobe.He is an inspiration. when i read about this article in Willy Saw's column in the Philippine Star and he had written something about billionaires like Larry Ellison of the Oracle flying his fighter jet and racing his yacht or Charles Bronson of Virgin Cola and Virgin Atlantic Airways trying to break land, air speed and distance records, I too, can't help but wonder if they also admire and are trying to emulate Howard Hughes and his ferrless antics. But unlike Bronson who tries to break world records aboard his hot air balloon or Ellison who sails in his luxury yacht, Hugheds designed, innovated and personally test flew his planes which advanced the cause of the world of aviation.Scorsesse and DiCaprio succeeded in portrying the glamour, genius, romance and triumphs of Howard Hughes' life but they fail in exploring the tragedy and sadness of his life giving the movie an incomplete idea of what Howard Hughes' life really is.It was tragic that despite his genius, courage and triumphs, he didn't have a stable and happy family with awife he could share his life with. He was a business and aviation genius, but he failed to understand the infinite wealth of a loving woman or having a family. Thus is one aspect of his kegend that was a source of his melancholy and sadness.Was it because he was an orphan, who never really had a normal life which caused him to succeed in business and aviation but fail in his personal realtionships amidst the women in his life?He is an aviation pioneer. Among his aviation records are achieving a land speed record with the world's fastest plane which he built, a transcontinental record, series of death-defying flights to prove that high altitude flying increases air speed, thus opening new frontiers in aviation, a Harmon trophy, the world's greatest long distance speed flight, flew around the world in 3 days, 19 hours and 17 minutes in 1938 and was named to the aviation hall of fame.How come his legend continues to grip the imagination of the world to this day? why do i look up to hom and never cease to marvel at his life no matter how unperfect he is? Perhaps it is his attitude and principle that he will risk everything to get what he wants or is it because of how he dreamed unceasingly to improve.Maybe there is a little of Howard Hughes in all of us who have dreams and strives hard to pursue that dream. Who has dreams to improve, to be what we want ourselves to be. Maybe there really is a little of him in us.No amount of failure or anguish or tragedies can overwhelm a man inspired by dreams. Even nations are inspired to national unity and greatness by a dream. Look at China, South korea, Israel, they have succeded in pursuit of a dream.Why don't our political leaders inspire hope in the future and give Philippines a dream worth enduring so all Filipinos can unite and endure hardships for that one goal.The future does not belong only to people with wealth, power or social status but to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. All of us are equal in the eyes of God and in our capacity to dream. it does not cost us a centavo to dream. Only a person who acnnot dream is truly poor.Howard Hughes, a perfect exampleof a man who dreame big, strived, persevered, succeede and conquered the skies.

This essay is wholly inspired by an article in The Philippine Star by Willy Saw about the same topic. Basically it is just a revision of Mr. Saw's article. I do not credit myself for this certain article I was just inspired by it and slightly revised it But the last two paragraphs are of my idea. My apologies to Mr. Saw and the Philippine Star if they thought i was plagiarizing.

year book

2006-06-08T22:34:00.000-07:00

i just want to pst here what i've written on the yearbook. . .

Salamat!!! Lahat ng paghihirap natin ay nagbunga na!!! grumaduate na tayo!!! Pero may bago na naman uli tayong paghihirapan ang COLEGIO!!! at marami rin ang mga pagsubok at paghihirap na ating dadaanan sa pagtahak sa ating buhay pero ayos lang yan basta walang sukuan!!! Andito naman tayo para sa isa't-isa di ba? Anyway... Gusto ko sanang pasalamatan unang-una yung parents ko kas pinag-aral nila ako dito sa Mater at sila yung pumipilit sa aking mag-aral pag tinatamad na ako. Sa mga teachers dahil madami talaga akong natutunan at sa pagpapasensya nila sa akin. Sa mga batchmates at naging classmates ko... SERVICE, JUSTICE, CONTEMPLATIVE, AT BENIGNUS salamt kasi ginawa niyong kapana-panabik ang pag-upo ng walong oras sa armchair at makinig sa teacher. Thank you din kasi kagi kayong andyan para sa akin lalo na sa mga FRIENDS ko!!! thank you para sa lahat ng High School memories na i ibinigay niyo sa akin!!!Thank yo sa Mater Carmeli kasi tinanggap ako at nagkaroon ako ng values na 'di ko makakalimutan at sa paghubog sa mga mag- aaral. Thank You din sa mga ates, kuyas, sisters at schoolmates!!! At higit sa lahat... Thank You kay God for making this all possible... basta walang limutan ha!!! Yun lang!!! Ingat kayo lagi!!!
this is the Goodbye Song of our batch it's an Original Composition of Benignity, my section ko!!! . . .
TEARS AND LAUGHTER
once i was afraidto go on my own
i always feel that i am alone
then you held my hand
said not to worry
because you will stay right here beside me
my world has changed
when you came into my life
my sadness and burdens has gone inside
there's no goodbye
oh.. never 'cause in my heart you will stay... forever...
thank you for the laughters
thank you for the tears
you are my inspiration
that's why i am here
those years we've been together i owe it all to you
so let's not say goodbyecause our journey just begins
time has come for us to part
our ways now it willbe miles away
but i know that friendships
last forever until the day
we'll see each other
you changed my life now i'm better
you took my fears now i'm stronger
there's no goodbye oh...nevercause in my heart
you will stay forever
thank you for the laughters
thank you for the tears
you are my inspiration
that's why i am here
those years we've been together i owe it all to you
so let's not say goodbye
cause our journey just begins
once i was afraid
to go on my own
i always feel that i am alone
then you held my hand
said not to worry
because you will stay right here beside me

EXPERIENCE AS A STUDENT TEACHER!!!!!

2006-03-03T21:44:00.000-08:00

Teaching is easy. You just have to watch the students, teach them their lessons, record their scores and compute them, discipline them every now and then. Very easy. Easy as 1,2,3... a,b,c... do, re, mi... But last January 26, 2006, I realized that i was so, so , so wrong. Teaching is very7 excruciating, fatigue inducing, stressful but fulfilling.
I got assigned for T. Isabel who teaches the Grade Five students Reading and also teaches the First Year Modesty of English. I thought it would be a breeze, because I thought that all i have to do is tell them what they were going to do and then just sit back and relax, but as the saying goes, “expect the unexpected”. When we arrived at our first class the students were already rowdy and unruly. They were hard to control. It was very difficult to explain to them what they have to do. They asked a lot of questions. This scenario continued until the last class we have to supervise. To think that it would be a breeze is so wrong. By the end of the day i was so exhausted and tired.
But i realized that teachers should be respected and they should be given pride. They should be gratified it's not easy standing there and talking when all the students don't want to listen. It's not easy reprimanding everyone. Most of the time, i hate my teachers telling me what to do, but then i realized that it's for my own cause because they will not gain if they will discipline me or not i am the gainer.
I contemplated that to be a teacher requires a lot of patience and hard work. I also realized that they are to thankful for.
After this experience I want to thank all my teachers for their patience, hardwork, lessons they taught us every single day, for their support and most especially for the discipline that they instill among us.
Thank You TEACHERS!!!!

SETTING DIFFERENCES ASIDE

2006-03-03T21:42:00.000-08:00

SETTING DIFFERENCES ASIDE
Hello Garci!!!
Ever since the public release of the Garci tapes, our nation and our lives have been in a state of confusion and haywire. Everyday we wake up wondering what might happen next. Will our country’s political and economic crisis will be solved eventually?
It started on June of last year when Press Secretary Ignacio Bunye reveals the existence of the controversial tapes that featured the voice of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo and COMELEC commissioner Virgilio Garcillano. Then there is Paguia who releases other Garci tapes then, Garcillano denies involvement. There is Samuel Ong who claims that he has the mother of all tapes. Then there is the blizzard of events that can seem to sink in our already problematic minds. Events such like Susan Roces criticizing PGMA, Cory Aquino alongside the opposition and many activist groups wanting to oust the president, former President Fidel V. Ramos and the government asking for cha-cha or charter change, there goes the ten cabinet members who simultaneously handed their resignation just a few days before the SONA also known as the Hyatt ten. Finally, the most anticipated SONA, which we thought to end all this political crisis but to no avail it only added to the controversies. The whistle blowers,impeachment, People’s court, the questioning of the venerable contract, killing of activist’s organization leaders, all time high of petroleum products and E-VAT among others adding to the never-ending problem with the crime-rate, the increasing rate of the already increased rate of poverty, lack of education, health care and every unsolved problem that the Philippines has.
We often heard and witness that we are blessed with the abundance of natural resources, people all over the world that is respected, especially embodied by Ms. International Precious Lara Quigaman and, the recently concluded SEA games , athletes among others. Yet why is it that our country remains to be one of the poorest in this part of the world. How come everyday we see children begging in the streets? How come there is bound to be someone talented and hardworking still worry about his next meal? His finances?
Definitely, we are looking for a solution but sense none in the immediate horizon. Not even rallies show us a solution all of us are all disappointed, does anyone yet made an act? Or just pure politicking and self benefit?
Why don’t we unite in a common goal and that is to resolve this crisis? Why don’t we give our president the benefit of the doubt and give her a chance to prove herself wrong. Why don’t we set aside our differences and work for this common goal. Why don’t we Filipinos start within to understand the needs of our countrymen and make this country the best place to live in.
Will our political and economic crisis will be solved eventually? I strongly agree that we can solve this together. We can solve this! If and only if we realize that what our country needs is us being united and not squabbling with each other.
We have a fighting chance! GO PHILIPPINES!!! GO FILIPINOS!!!

I can't believe i saw him!!!!!!

2006-02-04T21:16:00.000-08:00

grabe di ako makapaniwala na nakita ko siya uli after 7 months...... the one who danced with me at the prom even though i don't know him!!!! la lang!!!! i just didn't expect him to be there.... i last saw him on JUNE 2005..... opening yun ng classes.... sana lang magkausap kami para naman di ba magkalinawan kami.... kasi di pa kami uli nakapag-usap after nung prom.... sana lang kasi sayang.... sana maging friends kami diba..... yun lang!!!!! di ko nga alam kung siya talaga yun or imagination ko lang di ko rin alam kung nakita niya ako!!!! hinanap ko nga siya uli para maconfirm pero di ko na siya uli nakita eh..... sana magkaayos kami... not that we had a fight or something but i felt that i did something to him that i guess he didn't like...... like the time the AFFABILITY was on duty (which was his section) i think he tried to ask something but i didn't or i guess wouldn't notice him.... i guess that's why we never really talked...... i just hope one day we will be in good terms..... sigh.....

2006-01-02T19:11:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know its late to greet happy new year but hey, its better late than never....... well, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

merry, merry christmas!!!!!!

2005-12-26T19:07:00.000-08:00

i just wanna say HAPPY cHRISTMAS to one and all and i hope to have a blessed new year and i read this from www.xanga.com/hipstah it's a christmas song by jose mari chan entitled COUNT yYOUR BLESSINGS .... i really think that what she and the song says is true.... visit her blog and find out why i really liked it......hope you like it the way i liked it and hope it made you realize something that you don't realize before ENJOY!!!!

i can't believe him!!!!!!!

2005-12-26T18:58:00.000-08:00

i can't believe it's christmas!!!! i just got home from our vacation in Tarlac and with me is a dog named charlie.... he's a puppy, i know,,, but he's driving me nuts..... he wants to be cuddled then when you cuddle him he starts to bite you... i konow he's cute and all but he poos and pees anywhere he wants back there at my cousin's house (my cousin is the previous owner) he would only poo and pee in a newspaper in our house he poos and pees EVERYWHERE, as in everywhere our house is a stench because of him..... i know its christmas and i shoild share the CHRISTMAS spirit with him but i can't stand to live like this i just hope that when he starts being a puppy he'll learn.... OHH HOW I WISH... well, i'll keep my fingers crossed....

GEISHA MADNESS 2

2005-12-20T21:47:00.000-08:00

i went to robinson's ermita last last sunday and i saw the poster of the memoirs of a geisha, ican't wait to watch i can see that even the eyes of the actress there is very the same with sayuri ; blue green. i wish that maybe i will find my chairman and be happy. i really think that syuri lived her life to the fullest though not the way she wanted it. she also made me realize how important dreaming is and that dreams reallly come true. she opened my eyes to the world amd culteure of a geisha. she taught me that struggles lead you to the greener pasture i hope it will be shown soon i'm really excited!!!!!

Christmassy Spirit

2005-12-20T21:39:00.000-08:00

HHHHHHEEEEEYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! it's our christmas party today guess what i recieved: a PARKER it's just in time cause the ink of my parker is out so i need to nuy a refill, since i have a new parker i need not to THANKS TO JAMES, the one who got my name!!!!! by the way i can't seem to get this song out of my head i might as well write it here enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!

Close the doorI feel a breezeOn the midstI hate to be aloneIt's a cold nightTurn off the lightTake my hand andListenTo these things i have to sayPlease understandShe left me All alone againClear the roomOf every memoryDon't want our song back onIt's an endless mazeTake away this hazeMend my heart andTurn awayDon't want you to see me cryJust want things the way they wereWhy is it so hard to say goodbye Wipe my tears andSo this i ask of youStay with meUntil she comes backPlease listen and stay Until she comes back

Oh my GOSH!!!!!! im not GUILTY!!!!!!

2005-12-19T01:05:00.000-08:00

i'm ot in ood today my gosh!!!!!! my physics teacher is a wreck. He huiliated me in frontof the CLASs!!!!. he thought that i helped a classmate pass the quiz (CHEAT!!!!!!) well in fact i myself did no pass the test...... how worst can you get????? i super duper hate HIM!!!!!!! butv nevertheless also love him cause he let me by and ddn't let me pass the narrative slip to the prefect.................... but my ego , is BADLY bruised imagine i didn't et topass or do anythin cheating related and i may be branded as a cheater it's so UNFAIR!!!!!! now i dread to attend physics it's so shameful that my name is deranged in what i didn't even do!!!!! what will i do!!!!! im just not gultty!!!!! AAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

heheheheh SLightly Overweighted!!!!

2005-12-04T00:17:00.000-08:00

after me learning that im overweight by 3 kg i decide that i will change my lifestyle!!!!! im feeling low about myself coz i cant seem to wear the clothes that i used to wear now im in the verge of having a breakdown(hahahah!!!!) but i realized i should resolve this thus i make the three steps to a healthy and more fit MEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!
1. I will not eat JUNK FOODS more than THRICE a week (i know its super torture but i believe this will help me!!!) and exchanged it with fruits
2. I will sleep early coz i've been told that we lose efficiency ifwe sleep less than 6 hours a day
3. I will do sports right now i'm playing badminton!!!! hope it will help
and soon i will be slim and more healthier and i mean not the overweight healthy kind!!!!

Geisha Madness

2005-12-04T00:01:00.000-08:00

I recently bought a kinda old issue of A Memoir of Geisha last Friday and i can't seem to stop reading it I guess I find it interesting to read about a culture differnt from ours but the funny thing about me reading about a geisha i can't seem to do what i'm supposed to do coz the moment i read it from the start even if i'm like eating i'll put it on the table so after i finished eating i'll read it or when i'm taking a bath it's so annoying to the people of the house that they told me that they are having a headache just by looking at me reading so engrossed... but what can i say i can't bl;ame myself that i'm reading something so interesting that i'm considering it to be on the list of my favorite book of course sayuri's life is far more different than mine but i think somehow i can realate to what she experienced i guess it's also a sort of a eye opener to me..... i think that's all i think i'm going to reread it......